melting into the disordered thoughts in my head
there sat a dusty, stained boy's decomposing body
there he sits, alone in the clutter piled miles highis this how i die ? dead in my own damn bed ?
it doesn't help that i constantly stare , looking groggy
god how i wish i could buy more time just to cryi miss being joyful, without a hint of red
in my eye from crying and whinnying not to be so squabbly
how i wish the clutter and fog would just diealong with that boy's mummy, i wish instead
for a clear, untainted head, full of —nothing, for i would have nothing to fear.
this is an elegy about myself . critique is a-ok .