Hanahaki: Koruken

Part two

"Oh.. do you have feeling for him." I ask, still hoping there was a chance to get this pit out of my stomach.

Kuroo laughs, "He's definitely an interesting one, I am definitely thinking about trying to make that shot." He says cheerfully, but what he says doesn't help my case.

I take a moment to respond, "What about the brown(/green) haired kid that's always by him? I thought they were together." I can't understand why, but I'm desperately trying to debunk his feelings.

Kuroo shakes his head and I can feel my eyes widen and I quickly calm down, "No I asked and he said they were only friends, such great luck. Tsukkishima doesn't seem to mind me too much either. He reminds me of you a little actually, I guess that's why I want to get close to him.

His words only pull at my heartstrings. "O-oh, well if he reminds you of me then why be friends with him when you have me?" I say, with a slight pouty lip.

Kuroo ruffles my hair and laughs, "Aw are you jealous." I try to get put on a smile that doesn't look too fake.

"Don't say such ridiculous things." I shake my head and keep it faced away. "Hm. I wanna get changed out of this uniform." I sigh and stand up. I walk over to a drawer and open it, since I basically live here just as much as my own home, I have a small section in one of the drawers for my clothes. I pull out a shirt and some sweats and walk into the bathroom.

Once I close the door behind me, tears roll down my cheek. I get a little surprised by them and I touch my face lightly with my fingers. "Oh I see.. I guess this is a reminder that we can't get any further with our relationship." I give a shaky sigh. I grab my shirt around the part over my heart and slide down the door and onto the floor.

I sob quietly into my knees for a few minutes before quickly drying them after I head a knock on the door, "Are you okay in there Kenma? What's taking so long?"

I take a breath and answer, "Oh um, I just got distracted, sorry, I will be right out!" I say. I take off my uniform and slip on the way more comfortable clothes. I open the door and walk out, Kuroo is on the bed again, he looks up from his phone to look atme when i walk into the bedroom.

"What were you doing in there?" He asks, still a happy expression on his face.

I sit beside him once more, "Oh I got distracted looking in the mirror, my roots are showing more and more, I wonder if I should dye them again.." I lie.

He nods his head and goes back to typing in his phone. I peek at the screen to see if the contact name is visible. My heart drops. Written in bold letters at the top is "Tsukkishima"

I look away and find my bag, once I get it, I dig through it to find my phone. I start playing a new game I found on the AppStore, it came out a while ago but it recently became super popular.

After a few minutes of this awkward silence, and occasional giggles from Kuroo, and a couple mad sounds from me, Kuroo places down his phone and leans onto me. I blush slightly and look at him, "What is it?"

He shrugs, "Nothing, Tsukki had to step away for a bit so I'm watching you play. What are you playing?"

I smile softly, it really is hard to stay sad or mad in his presence, even if I know his smile isn't for me. "It's a game called Among Us. I'm the Imposter, so I have to kill everyone. I keep getting voted out."

Kuroo laughs a little, "That sounds pretty violent. I don't want you getting any ideas Kenma kitty." He gives a dramatic pouty lip.

I flick his forehead, "What are you talking about idiot." I can't help but smile.

Kuroo's phone bings and I look at it. Kuroo picks it up and goes a little wide eyed, I watch him, ignoring my game for a bit. "What is it?" I ask.

Kuroo looks at me, "Tsukkishima asked me if I'd like to hang out.." I can tell he wants to go but feels he needs to stay with me.

"You can go to him. It's not like you wanna reject the person you don't want to reject you.. right?" I say, trying to hide the pain.

Kuroo frowns a little, "Are you sure?" He sits up.

I nod, "Well I said I want you to go to him didn't I? So why would I mind." I avoid eye contact, I look back at my game. "Besides, I left one of my school books at home, so i would've either skipped homework or I would've had to go home and grab it. So it works out." I use the book as an excuse.

Kuroo smiles and places his hand on my head. "Oh that makes me glad!" Well you have the key, just lock up when you leave, Kenma-Kitty." He then grabs a few things and leaves, he turns to smile at me before he does, then I watch him exit the house.

I feel my stomach churn. I set my phone down and let more tears stream down my cheek. My stomach feels weird. My throat itches.

I suddenly cough, and out comes a petal.