Don't Watch Me Cry

Chapter 40

"i know i just don't wanna get hurt" i said

"nali hurt comes with life you have the control to handle it in either a positive way or a negative way" she said

"you know you love Kasim , and i think he's worth it" she added on

"Kasim and I are toxic" i said

"and y'all can fix that and build , commitment Nali" she said

"okay okay" i said

"really ?" she said

"really , i love Kasim with my whole entire heart , i gotta stop sabotaging myself" i said standing up

"yess queen get your man" she said

"yes im gonna call him tonight" i said

"yes bitch perioddddd" she said

i got up and went into my room so i can go take a shower

i got out the shower after 25 minutes and went to Lala room

"hey lala , let's have a girls night" i said barging in

"okay , i'll invite them over" she said

i nodded and went back into my room and laid on my bed air drying , i was scrolling through my photos and deleted some for some storage and i came across some photos and videos of Kasim and I and just looking at us together made me so happy and excited

Being this inlove with someone feels so good but yet so scary , this one video of us making a fake youtube mukbang in the car and im just eating and talking really being myself and the way he's looking at me is like WOAH WE TALKING ABOUT ME RIGHT NOW ? i didn't even notice until now which is the crazy part

i got off my phone and turned on my tv and started watching The Game on Hulu , derwin and malik is so FINEEEE like omg i have like 10 tv husbands but who's really counting... well i am , i have damon , klaus , stefan , hotch , reid , derwin , malik ... i can go on and on

about a couple of hours later and hours into the tv show all i hear is

"bitch we are hereeeeeee" coming from outside the door , that's my que

I got up and went out there , "hey y'all" i said sitting on the couch

they sat down as of well and Lala & Sage looked a bit cuddled up .. huh i love how they friendship has progressed

"guys , im getting back together with Kasim" i said

their eyes shot wide open , " yesssssss , i love this for you" Sage and Aaliyah said

"i convinced her" Lala said

"and you didn't tell me" sage said playfully hitting her

"not for me to tell" Lala said

"well we are all bestfriends" Sage said

we started laughing , "are we not ?" sage said

"yes we are" aaliyah said

"so aaliyah you and rick ?" i said smirking

"we are dating but not boyfriend and girlfriend yet if that makes sense" she said

"boo it makes sense , so have y'all ... you know" Sage said

"have we what ?" Aaliyah said

"fucked" Sage said laughing

"maybe" Aaliyah said

"bitchhhhhh how was it ? he big ?" i said sitting on my knees

"chileee he is B I G , like i tapped out about 3 times , he kept going with that take this dick energy and i was HERE FOR IT , i never came so many times in my life shit i have never came before" she said

"you never came ?" sage asked

"girl let's not act like these niggas know how to fuck okay ?" aaliyah said laughing

we joined , "that's right" we said

"do you like him ?" Lala asked

"yea i really really do , we can be ourselves, share are dreams and aspirations , have fun like the great sex is honestly a major plus , i haven't connected with someone like that before" Aaliyah said

"i know the feeling" Sage said

"you do ?" Lala asked

"with Sincere ?" I asked

"honestly , no ... don't get me wrong I love Sincere and he'll always be my bestfriend but sometimes bestfriends don't need to be pursuing relationships" she said turning to Lala then us

"but no it's not with him" Sage added on

"who ?" Aaliyah said

"nah it doesn't matter" Sage said laughing

"So , Nali you gonna call him ?" Lala asked

"yea yea , let me go get my phone" i said getting up and taking my phone off the charger

i went back and sat down , i called him and he didn't answer , i called again and no answer

"he's probably sleep" i said

"kasim ain't no damn sleep" Lala said

I laughed , okay okay . i'll text him

Kasim 💕.

hey Kasim , im tryna call you , it's important... it's about us

"it's not delivering" i said , "his phone probably died" Aaliyah said , "nah idk maybe he blocked me , i did storm out when he asked us to get back together, i knew i should've stopped playing games" i said throwing my head back

"Nali you know he gonna calm around , he needs his little space he'll be okay" Sage said

"ugh , you're right , i love Kasim alot , losing him isn't something I want" i said

We was just talking some more , we decided to put on a movie one of those teen romance movies my favorite

my phone started ringing and I answered it , "hello ?" i said , "hello , is this Nali Fletcher ?" i heard this man say , "who is this ?" i said , "hi im Dr. Montovlo , Calling from Atlanta Central Hospital , Calling about Kasim White , he was fatally shot a-" i couldn't hear anything anymore , everything slowed down , my chest got tight , i couldn't breath

"Nali , Nali" i heard my friends say panicking

"i- i - i gotta go" i said i got up , grabbed my bag and ran outside

i can't breath i can't think , i got into my car and sped off , the song Talking To The Moon by Bruno Mars was on the radio and it's made me start crying so hard i could barely see , it just made me think of Kasim even more

I wiped my tears and eventually i made it to the hospital

i walked in , "DR.MONTOVLO DR MONTOVLO" i came in screaming

"yes yes im here " he came over running

"where is he , Kasim where is he" i said as i felt my knees locking

"he's in surgery, in and out of consciousness" he said

"WHAT HAPPENED WHAT HAPPENED i said crying harder and yelling

"ma'am -" he started

"JUST TELL ME JUST FUCKING TELL ME"

"he - he was shot in the head , we don't know if he's gonna make it, but we have the best surgeons working as hard as they could we are all fighting" he said

"i - i can't breathe , I CANT SEE YOU" i felt my body drop to the floor and everything else went blank

A/N : Sorry for slacking on this update , school started and i have been so busy . but i had to drop this

i know it's short but y'all stay tuned

i love yall ❤️.

~milan <33