Before He Cheats (Work In Progress)

Chapter 12

"I just need another chance. You deserve to be happy."

"I don't deserve to stay and look stupid either."
He was insane if he believed that I would take him back.

I don't see us reconciling. Even if we did, nothing would be the same. I wouldn't trust him, let alone want to sleep in the same bed as him.

How can you have a relationship without any trust?

"I want you to come home." He demanded. "It's been four months, don't you think it's been long enough?"

"I'm not coming with you." I stated, narrowing my eyes at him.

"I don't sleep, I barely eat, I can't function without you." I could hear the fatigue in his voice. "I miss you and I know you feel the same." I rolled my eyes in irritation.

"I've been fine, great actually. Ever since I realized that I shouldn't waste my tears on someone who wasn't worth it, I've been doing better for myself." I was proud of the person I was becoming, and the progress I was making.

"But Vanessa I love you. And I know you love me too." He had a great way of showing it.

"I loved you, and I left because you showed that you didn't love me." I said, my voice getting shaky at the end.

"See you in court." I looked him straight in the eyes, before turning and leaving the room.

Thinking about it now, I don't think he took his eyes off me once during the whole session.

Now we have to go to trial in a week. No matter how many times Pablo assured me that it would go smoothly, I couldn't help but feel a bit stressed.

Now whenever I felt overwhelmed by anything, I went for a jog or a long walk.

The rush of endorphins I felt afterwards trumped over any negative thoughts I had. It really took my mind off everything.

It didn't help that Matthew sent flowers to my job along with an envelope attached three times a week.

I threw the letters in the trash everytime and I usually gave Lucy the flowers.

Not everyday was perfect, I realized, growth doesn't just come overnight.

Just striving to be better than you were the day before is enough. And when it's time for you to bloom, you'll know.

I'd been feeling different ever since I've started focusing more on myself. I couldn't explain how I was feeling, but I see it.

The main reason I was going all this was for me. So that I could be better, and live the happy life I wanted.

Rounding the last bend, I gave it my all as I sprinted toward the beginning of the trail.

Stopping, I greedily drank the rest of my water bottle as I heard Pablo panting profusely behind me. It looks like the heat got to him again.

"When you said you wanted to workout, I didn't think it'd be this intense." He said with sweat running down his face.

He said this every time we went running.

"We only ran two laps around the park. Come on, we have to finish with a walk around one more time for our cool down." I urged.

"This better be it. My massage therapist isn't as harsh on me like you are." He said playfully.

"We have quite a bit of time." I said. "I actually have a massage after this. Lymphatic drainage."

"Tell me how it goes. I've only done a deep tissue." He drank his water quickly before following me down the trail that we took minutes ago.

"It's supposed to be very tiring so I plan on relaxing all day after this."