Unrealistic future「Mikasa x reader」✔

8.

|||Y/n L/n|||

It's been some days since she told me she was going out with Eren. Exactly was it Friday, she got a day free. While Historia, Ymir, Armin and I were on the set. More like we had been working. It wasn't Mikasa's fault we were working now. It was the fault of neither of our sides. After all was just today a scene in which she wasn't in.

I felt empty since that, the day I found it out directly. I knew I should have realized earlier I that I should have confessed. After all I just wasn't the type for love. Peoples have things their good in and I am only bad at love. While the fairy tails there was always this true love.. I spat on it.

All this true love talks were honestly just pure bullshit. Others could have a different opinion, I respected that. But still, there was nothing holding me that could make me believe in those things how faith could bring people together. Nothing was after all a total coincidence. Sometimes it gives luck other times it's just bad luck. I could live with both sides.

I felt just not this spirit with the bad humor inside of myself. When I was kidding around with Mikasa. Even if she was pushing that all most times of her shoulder's. It felt real, I was regretting for the first time in my life something really conflicted. I still wasn't sure what would have been if I had only the courage to it.

I went to Armin, Ymir and Historia. They already knew each other since we started this project. I watched how they talked to each other. Somehow funny as if they knew each other for longer than that. It was only one year after all.

"Hey Y/n!" Ymir called after me. I winced at the sudden actions of the brunette. It wasn't usual for me to do so but something just didn't wanted to go out of my mind.

I went over to them, "Hey Y/n" Historia greeted smiling. I smiled back at her. "Guys please let's do our lunch break together!" I wined, "I don't wanna be alone again.." I added muttering. My voice was quiet. I stared at the ceiling of the hall. Armin put his hand against the lips.

On his face I could see that he had a idea what was going on. That fact scared me even if people didn't saw it on my face I was shitting my pants on the inside. "So Mikasa is on a date?" He asked. I shrieked together at his question. It came out of nowhere out of my personal perspective. I asked myself at this moment what he was really out for.

While my heart was arching to get to know it my mind already did. The anwser to it was simple yet it was so complex.

"You kind of should have tried at the point where she was still single." He put a hand on my shoulder. Looking at me with his ocean eyes. His blonde hair shivered in the light of the spotlight that was fixed. I saw how the jaws of Historia and Ymir were slightly opened.

This - as he eyed with my eyes that was strange. Felt like as if he was pitying me. I felt something in my heart go heavy. I realized what he was trying to say me.

I actually told both of them she was going on a date just not that it was today. I wasn't even sure myself when it was until she texted me this morning as she found out she got a free day.

"He knows?" Ymir asked irritated. I nodded, Historia cheered something I couldn't understand. As I had my eyes on the blonde I analyzed her movements previously. "How?" Historia asked with a interested innocent tone. Her tone was sounding so nice. I was understanding why Ymir protected this innocent in person so much.

Even if Ymir would never say it out loud. I'm sure she would take it on with every guy that would be in her way to protect her. That's the reason why their relationship is so special.. they wanted what felt since ever to be truly there for each other.

At that moment I couldn't anymore. I laughed, "guy's I love you all so much.. but you are so clueless!" I laughed my ass so off. There was no morning in it, a super awkward moment. Another situation I could add my list too, sooner or later.

"Armin's the brain, he is that smart I bet he knew it a long time even before I realized." I said still trying to catch myself soon. At least I was hoping to it.

Armin blushed at the compliment I made him. He didn't even seemed to notice just as his cheeks started coloring themselves in different crimson tones.

"I'm in!" Historia said looking me into the eyes. As I saw her blue eyes it somewhat calmed me. Ymir scoffed as as Armin was agreeing with being apart. "Ok, I'm in too." she muttered in defeat. I smirked at those words, I felt a sudden warmth in my heart.

The smallest event's gave me always those kind of emotions that I couldn't describe with any words.

Those were my most meaningful memories.

As we went for the lunch room Armin told us something about the little Eren, him and I done as kids. After it in the end we all got into some big trouble. I regretted nothing it was the best thing ever. Playing the old Mr.Steaf a dumb April fool.

I admit it might was never the best but it was satisfying for me and Eren. Armin only tried to knock some sense into us with words. What didn't worked like how we found out in the old memories.

We sat down on the chairs with a crack. Well it wasn't exactly sat-more fell right onto them. We still laughed a whole while.

"Y/n you think they get after this date more close?" Historia asked me concerned. I shrugged in response taking a sip of my water bottle. "I don't have the smallest clue."

It was no lie that I had no clue of what was going on between those two. One fact mattered for me move finally on Y/n.