Back To You [editing]

Chapter 6 - Sophie

"Thanks?" I asked questioningly

"Almost like Councillor Oralie,"

"Oh," I looked at the floor as Dex stared at me

"It doesn't matter," Keefe said, saving me from answering

Biana looked at Keefe and nodded. "Your right,"

She looked back at me. "How was Keefe here first?

"I..." I looked at Keefe, hoping he had an answer

Truth? I transmitted to Keefe. He jumped and nodded

"Keefe came yesterday to my house in the forbidden cities,"

"Yesterday?" Dex asked at the same time Biana said: "Forbidden cities?"

"Yeah..."

"Keefe you went yesterday?" Dex said, shaking his head.

"Forbidden cities?" Biana repeated. "You were in the Forbidden cities?"

"I know and I'm so sorry. I made everyone miserable. It was all my f-"

"Sophie stop," Keefe said, shaking his head

I did it again

Made Keefe stop me from making myself feel guilty

And everyone else feel horrible

"Sophie seriously, stop," Keefe said, stepping forward, and I stumbled back a step

I felt a change in feeling

Happy to dreadful

"I'm sorry, Keefe. I must be throwing all these emotions at you, especially the guilt," I shook my head. "You should just.... stay away from me- all of you should. I made a mistake coming back." I mentally slapped myself when I saw their inconsolable expressions

I screwed up again

I shouldn't have set up the bombs

I shouldn't have talked to Keefe

I shouldn't have come to Havenfield

I shouldn't have kissed Keefe

I shouldn't love him and he shouldn't either

Who would love me?

My healed heart shattered into a million pieces

Maybe I should just leave this world

No, Edaline and Grady wouldn't want that

Maybe I could erase Keefe, Dex, and Biana's memories from today

I stepped back

Again

Again

Until I was at my door. "I-I should go,"

"Sophie wait-" Keefe said, reaching for me

"N-no," I stepped back

"Sophie please don't leave again," Dex said, he had tears in his eyes

"Please," Biana pleaded

My heart throbbed from hurt

Tears streamed down my face. "I have to go, don't follow me,"

"Sophie don't go- I can't live without you," Keefe pleaded and walked forward as I walked backward colliding with the wall. Keefe grabbed my hand. I flinched at his touch.

"D-don't follow me," I repeated and tears streamed down my face and I yanked my arm away. "I hope you and Jasmine live happily. You'll live so happily you won't even have time to think about me. Just MOVE ON!"

Keefe's eyes turned glassy. "But I want you,"

I squeezed my eyes shut. This was killing me bit by bit. I leaned in and kissed him softly- this will be the last time I'll do this. His minty taste lingered in my mouth as I pulled away. "Goodbye, Keefe,"

"N-no, please, Sophie," Keefe grabbed my arm as I tried to step away. Tears were smeared against his cheeks

"Let me go, Keefe," I yanked my arm away as hard as I could and looked behind him. "I'll erase your memories if any of you follow me."

"Sophie, please." He repeated

"Goodbye, Keefe," I said, and turned away. "You'll be glad- n-nevermind. Just goodbye,"

I took off running downstairs inhaling the scent of Havenfield one last time and I ran outside. I knew Keefe was chasing me and I ran harder than ever. I felt my scrunchie fall off my hair and wind whipped through my wild hair as I ran even harder.

"Sophie!" I heard Keefe's voice and my tears fell out of my eyes. Tears desended from my eyes like a broken necklace of pearls. I concentrated and a void split in front of me. I fell into it and thought of my house in the Forbidden cities.

Here I am again.

In the same place, I was in 4 years and 88 days ago

Running away from my mistakes

Sophie Foster