He left, just like that . No trying to work it out and for what? How can you just throw away 9 years of marriage just like that? How do you just walk away and give up on someone who loves you and break up a family?
I know I have done wrong and have anger issues and did things that I should not have done. I know I hurt him in ways that I could never make up for, but did it really have to come to this?
He knows that I would never hurt the children, but he took them anyway, which I feel was a punishment towards me. He is punishing me for the things I did. I am beginning to honestly believe that. I am at my wits end, i just want my family back together.
I have begged and pleading for him to come back, I apologized for all of it, but he won't listen. He has already moved on to someone new, the shocking part is that its a member of my own family.
So not only has he betrayed me so has this family member. I don't understand what kind of person stands in the way of their family member trying to work out their marriage? What kind of person is that? I JUST DON'T GET IT!!!!!!!!
Trying to wrap my head around what is going on is tiring and not healthy, I have loss of appetite, trouble sleeping, nightmares when I do sleep, and thoughts of them constantly together and if it was going on behind my back while she was visiting up here.
Why didn't I see it, or was I in denial that it was happening? Had I really lost him to her and why couldn't hold onto my husband? I am so angry with him, her and myself. I let my marriage slip right through my fingers along with my children. What person have I become?
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Thoughts Over The Years
Non-FictionReal emotions and thoughts as the author processes through their crumbling marriage and their 2nd divorce and losing their children, and all the feelings that come as an aftermath as the the author enters a new relationship and the next chapter. the...
