Beginning to realize that he is really not coming back home. It effing sucks that this is so real now. My only comfort these days is having the kids with me all the time, but even that is coming to an end eventually. It still feels like I am dreaming some days.
Not really talking to him much he calls to talk to the kids, which is good that he hasn't completely forgot he has children. Still miss him like crazy though. New Year's was hard I really thought that it would be over by now and he would be back into my life and we would be a family once again. He will be having another child in a few months, but like I have said before I would be more than happy to help raise my cousin.
On the flip side I have been working more and throwing my self into to keep from losing my sanity. Having the kids here is awesome and I love my little family. Unfortunately, my mother seems to think that as long as things are good between her and her sister then everything else will fall into place.
How can someone be so insenstive to their own child, I guess since her sister is the only thing that she has left out of that family she has to keep peace, but at what price to her own child.
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Thoughts Over The Years
Non-FictionReal emotions and thoughts as the author processes through their crumbling marriage and their 2nd divorce and losing their children, and all the feelings that come as an aftermath as the the author enters a new relationship and the next chapter. the...
