This is not goodbye (Hinata x Reader)

This is Not Goodbye

(Triger warning: Abuse, Su1c1de, mental illness, cutt*ng, d3ath, drinking, strong words, violence, ED etc.     n/n= nick name    Y/N= Your Name     '****'=time skip)

"I'm so hungry..." Y/N says as she opens her fridge inside you see all sorts of food. Chicken, Milk, Yogurt, Leftover tacos and so much good food. Y/N's tummy wanted some since she haven't eaten a proper meal in months maybe even years. But of course Y/N didn't want to get fat.. she wanted to remain the ideal look of the "perfect skinny girl" she wanted to be one of those pretty girls on social media. The ones with the perfect looks and body she envied them, She wanted to be like them....

"I can't eat none of that I will gain weight..." She thinks as she closes the fridge and gets a apple. Everyone knew about Y/N's ED (Eating Disorder) that is the reason everyone didn't like her Y/N was getting too into wanting to be the "perfect girl". Everyone told her "Your pretty", "You don't need to lose weight your perfect the way you are", "Don't do that to yourself your already pretty" but Y/N wasn't that dumb to believe them. She knew they were lying so she could feel better.

She bit into the apple it tasted sour.

Flashback

"Y/N has ED it also seems like she has a lot of mental trauma which is causing her su1c1de attempts also she has severe depression....She needs to be taken to a mental hospital" The doctor said Y/N's mom didn't want to believe it. "No it can't be my Y/N isn't like that, Y/N is eating perfectly fine She is loosing weight just because of GYM class right Y/N" Y/N stayed silent. "A-and those su1c1de attempts she just wasn't think straight right Y/N?" Y/N stayed silent....she only nods...She didn't want her mom to worry as much as Y/N loves her mom Y/N could't bring herself to say that it was her mom's fault, It was Y/N's mom's fault this all happened.

End of Flashback

"Y/N you look so fat", "Y/N why can't you be like your sister", "Why is my daughter eating so much food slow down or your gonna get more fat than you already are", "Y/N didn't you just eat a few minutes a go I don't care if your hungry put those chips down you fat pig"

Y/N's mom said all those stuff and more to her...so why could't she see that its her fault this all happened in the first place...

And then at home her nick name became "Fat Pig" at first Y/N thought it was a silly joke and that it was only gonna last a few days...but soon it became years...

then school, school was way worse...She even had to transfer out of her old school because they kept on calling her pig and making pig noises when she walked by...

She then transfer to Karasuno. Nobody knew she was su1c1dal no one knew she had ED no one called her fat pig or would make pig noises when she walked by in the halls.