I just wanna end everything. I don't even know, why I still talk to people, about the shit that's going on with me. I have only a handful of people who would actually listen and most of them, like 3 out of 4 live too far away to meet them. I hate the fact, that I live in Düsseldorf, I wish I could live near my friends. I wanna be able to meet them, to hug them... I just wanna be able to see them more often. I don't have enough money to go and visit them and I can't drive a car, nor am I allowed to, since I don't have a driving license. I just really hate my life right now. I can't talk to the person's I know in real life cause I know that they don't care about the shit I have to say. I guess I'll just stay alone forever then. And what's worse is the fact that I talked about something to someone and they weirdly stopped texting me. I knew I was gonna destroy everything once again, but they didn't listen and made me tell them. Everytime I do so, I get hurt. I wish I could travel back in time and reverse some things, just to be happy. Or to die, idk tbh.
