venus springs

petals

some days i let my petals open,
blooming like a flower
yet other days i wake up
with a heavy heart,
all the unanswered questions
caving in.

we both dislike confrontations,
facing what needs to be
faced with a strong mind
and heart. there are so
many things i wish to ask
you day in and day out
but i'm scared you will
immediately shut the
cover and leave the
pages unread.

we were so good at
communication, one of
best attributes to
our relationship. it's a shame
communication ended up
being our biggest loss
when we needed
it the most, when i was
left scrabbling for
the explanations that
would perhaps
dealt me pain but
would've healed me
in the process of it all.

you knew how dark and
haunted it gets in my head
sometimes, you knew it better
than most, yet you added
to that darkness,
letting me drown alone.