Oh, Ophelia | Tom Riddle

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"Are you alright, Lavender?" Asked Doctor Tanith, and then it was like an alarm went off in Ophelia's head, she felt like she was in danger. Like GRindelwald was going to pop into the room at any given moment and terrify her, forcing her into the arms of another man, 

Only now she wasn't next to Lolita. Ophelia wasn't okay. She went so far as to move her hand to grasp Lolita's but of course she wasn't there,

"Lavender?" Asked Doctor Tanith and Ophelia almost jumped half a foot in the air out of shock, and she almost looked over her shoulder to check if Grindelwald was in the room, "Lavender."

"I'm sorry, I should go, I need to get out," Said Ophelia, holding her head in her hands, 

"No. Lavender, are you Irish?" Asked Doctor Tanith, and Ophelia felt like she might throw up, she held her head in her hands and shut her eyes tightly, trying to regain control of her own mind, she was fucked. 

She was so fucked. What was that joke she made the other day? The one that-that made her smile, that would have made Lolita smile? So screwed she wouldn't be able to walk straight for days. Right. And a little kinky. 

"Mi Amor, you need some new material." Said Lolita in her mind, and Ophelia leant back in her seat, trying to control her breath, 

"I'm fine." Was all she managed to say as she returned to playing with the stuffed sun in her lap, 

"I can't help you if you don't talk to me," Said Doctor Tanith, and Ophelia looked at her, dead in the eyes, 

"What if I don't deserve help?" Asked Ophelia, and Doctor Tanith scribbled notes on her clipboard, 

"Why wouldn't you deserve help, Lavender?" Said the therapist, and Ophelia looked down, 

"I'm not a good person." She whispered, 

"You can cry into the stuffy if you want," Said Doctor Tanith, 

"Can I?" Said Ophelia, "I just don't know. If I start crying I might never stop. I'll end the world's water crisis by the time I stop,"

"What have you done, Lavender?" Asked Doctor Tanith,

"How much are you legally obligated to tell the police?" Asked Ophelia, 

"Unless you are a threat to yourself, others, or there are children involved, everything you say stays between us," Said Doctor Tanith, and Ophelia took a deep breath, 

The feeling of her heart beating out of her chest had not subsided, and she was having trouble forming coherent words, she opened and closed her mouth several times, and wanted desperately to run away again, 

"My, um mother, she-she" Ophelia broke down, for the first time since she'd arrived on the east coast of America, and hot tears leaked from her eyes, "She's dead, you know? And um, I really miss her, she used to send these letters and I can't help thinking at all times, how much I want my mommy,"

"Have you spoken to your father about this?" Asked Doctor Tanith and Ophelia wept harder, hiding her face behind the stuffed sun and crying, 

"He's gone too." Said Ophelia, "And I don't even know if my brother is still alive, or if he's in hiding or if he's been taken care of,"

"Taken care o-"

"Killed, doctor Tanith, killed. By a crimelord." Said Ophelia, "My mother died on my eighteenth birthday, my father died about a month ago, no sorry they were both murdered. And you know why? Because said crimelord wanted to use me in a goddamn scheme to get more money,"

"What?" Asked Doctor Tanith, putting the clipboard away, 

"He came and abducted me from my school and took me away, gave me a new identity and sent me off to get a rich man to fall in love. Twice." Said Ophelia, "And you know what's awful? I was good at it. This was my second wedding within the year. I loathe myself so much, but I just, I can't die until I know if my brother is alive,"