~~~IZUKU'S JOURNAL~~~ Depressed deku x todoroki

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Izukuwu's pov
I put my journal away and leave the restroom I wash my hands so I don't looks suspicious then I realized I had my little friend in my pocket. I take my blade out and made one cut on my arm and I just see the blood dripping down my arm, I then quickly snap out and wash my arm with water then I take out my bandages and rap my arm with them, I put on my blazer then walk back in the class room I see todoroki looking out the window 'cute' I thought. Class was boring so I started singing 'cradles' but not loudly, it's funny because I see kacchan pissed in front of me and I hear him mumble "shitty deku why do you always have to sing shitty and sad songs" the people who actually heard me sing was jiro,bakugo,sero,mineta,and tokoyami. Of fucking course mineta recorded and shared it around the school ughhhhh I sometimes wish I can Detroit smash kick style and punch style his ass (same bro 😔✊🏼)
Todoroki's pov
There's a rumor that midoriya can sing I wonder if it's true so I ask someone about the rumor "I herd it from mineta". I go to mineta and told him about midoriya, he then shows me the recording 'man I wish I can duet with him' 'he's really cute when he sings with his eyes closed' what am I thinking I'm not gay,well I'm not straight either because I don't find girls attractive, maybe I've never met the right girl I. I put my earbuds in and sing 'juice', Lizzo makes me happy I close my eyes and sing. I then open my eyes to see midorya singing right next me I take my earbuds off and listen "I just kind of wish you were gay, wish you were gay" he stops he looks at me, he's blushing 'cute' "omg I'm sorry if I disturbed you!" "No it's ok, you singing beautiful by the way" "uuuhhhh ummm" "what songs do you like" "umm I feel like you won't like them" "it's ok I'll like any genre" "umm maybe not In public" "ok met you at my dorm" "o-ok let me put my stuff in my dorm and I'll met you there" "ok midoriya" I hummed "heard you say I'm not-" I got cut off my midoriya singing "heard you you saying I'm not the baddest bitch you lie hahaha" I stare at him,wait did he just curse and did he just understand what song I was singing. I go to my dorm,I tidy my room and when I finish I see midoriya in casual clothes and with his headphones on him "welcome" we sit on the floor crisscrossed style we switch phones and see our podcasts,custom playlists,and albums I look and see 'depressed songs' 'sleep' 'rock' 'death metal' 'lo-fi' 'love' 'r&b' and many musical songs I found one I like it's called 'campfire song' from the lighting theft 'cool' etc. What the heck how did he get sad to some happy songs!? I listen to the songs in each playlist I see a notification for 'daily cut' I ignored it and 15 mins later 'daily cut✂️🔪🩸' i couldn't believe what was in front of me "midoriya?" I see him with his eyes closed bopping his head up and down to the beat of the song then I look and he's rubbing his wrists "midoriya!" (I didn't mean for todoroki's pov to be so long sorry 😅)
Midoriya's
After listening to his playlist FILLED WITH LIZZO I hear a muffled "midoriya!" I look up to see a confused todoroki "yea" I put on a fake smile "what's this" he shows me my notification for my cutting 'I knew I felt weird, it's because I didn't cut' i thought "uuummm" I can't believe my crush is going to know my secret "midoriya, can i see your wrists?" "NOO!" Wait did I just yell at him "so-orry" "midoriya please" I take off my blazer because I trust him and show him my wrists "midoriya why?" "I'm sorry I just, i don't want to be a burden" "midoriya im here to listen" I told him about kacchan,bullies,my anorexia, cutting,and me being quirkless "seams like your depressed and already I knew you had anxiety by talking to you, but I never knew you had anorexia" I inhaled deeply "no shit Sherlock" I look at him dead in the eyes and tell him that "I didn't know you can curse" I smile at him a genuine smile but I did it with a evil twist "oh fucking course I can mutherfucking (I spelled that wrong on purpose) curse what do you think I am, a pussy nah bitch when you least expect it I'm cursing right and left more than that bakubitch no, thotsuki " he looks at me with awe "I umm" I laugh at that statement 'I haven't laughed in a long time' I snorted and blush and put my hand on my mouth because todoroki just heard me snort 'it's been so long that I forgot I snorted when I laugh' i see todoroki smile 'he's to cute god dam' "don't stop your laugh is cute" I blush even more at that 'god todoroki stop being cute'

(Hai it's author Chan here, I don't proofread anything so sorry if I spell something wrong and yasssss two chapters in one dayyyyyy and all the songs I mentioned are because I was listening to liked songs and I wanted to put them in here lol
Ok be happy and safe my Lil cats)