San Vicente Series #1, Moon Embraces The Sun

Five

I turned off my phone at natulog ulit, pilit kong pinatulog yung sarili ko kahit di naman ako makakatulog.

I woke up around 8 am. Dahil ginising ako ni zon, nasa baba raw si zad. I told zon to let zad come up.

Naligo na muna ako at nung pagkalabas ko i saw zad sitting on my bed. I smiled at her and greeted her. Nagdamit ako sa loob ng bathroom ko at nung lumabas ako nilalabas na ni zad yung mga notebooks nya.

"Hindi ko kayang mag aral sa bahay, masyadong maingay, sorry ah kung bigla biglaan punta ko dito" zad said with a small smile.

"No it's ok, ano ka ba" i told zad.

I remembered ilios, hindi nga pala alam ni zad 'to. Actually si zad lahat nagaadvice sakin about any problems, i have always been opening up to her, alam kong andyan din sina ashia pero ayoko na silang istorbohin, tsaka lahat naman ginagawa nun para lang magka boypren ako, akala nila kasi sasaya na talaga ako pag mag boypren, but they're wrong, kapag kasama ko sila masaya na ako. I love them.

I told zad everything, on how i first met ilios, at nung mga encounter pa namin, zad was just listening, lahat lahat sinabi ko, from the beginning hanggang kagabi. Zad just smiled at me and began to talk.

"Why don't you entertain him?" Zad asked.

"For what? I mean why would i entertain him?" I asked zad and pretend that im reading on her notebook.

"Obviously, he likes you, and you like him" she said with her normal tone.

My eyes widened and shook my head directly.

"Me? I dont like him, i just admire him" i told zad and faked laugh.

" Ano ba pinagkaiba nun? Alam mo zanne, kapag tayo yung nasa posisyon, hindi talaga natin aaminin sa sarili natin na gusto natin yung tao, minsan yung iba kailangan lang iparealize yung iba naman kailangan mawala yung taong gusto nila bago nila maramdaman na gusto nila ito" zad said and stood up.

My eyes followed zad standing up, am i just lying to my self? Pinapahirapan ko ba yung sarili ko? She's right i like him, pero takot ako, alam ko kung saan kami tutungo ni ilios.

"I know you're scared, takot kang mag commit, kasi if there's commitment there's pain. Alam mo zanne, kapag nagmahal ka, asahan mong masasaktan ka, kahit nabubuhay ka lang masasaktan at masasaktan ka, be strong, face what's ahead of you" zan told me.

I hugged her and thanked her, kilalang kilala nya na talaga ako, lahat ng sinabi nya tinamaan ako, para akong baso na hinihintay lang lagyan ng tubig, alam ko yung sagot, pero kinailangan pang ibang tao yung nagsagot para sa sarili ko.

Takot ako, what if hindi ko kaya yung next na mangyayari? What if may mangyayari na masama? As much as possible lagi akong nasa good side, kpag may nangyayaring masama lagi kong iniintindi, making good reasons just to satisfy my self, i remember sun lagi nyang sinasabi na, we dont have to worry about the future, now is all that matters.

We ate breakfast with zon, after that bumalik ulit kami ni zad sa kwarto ko.

Kinuha ko yung phone ko, zad is right i like him, so what's stopping me?

@ilios.masandro

"Sun told me she's inviting us to dinner tomorrow"

"Is sod picking you up?"

Bat hindi ko pa to binasa kagabi!!

Chineck ko naman agad yung gc, and i saw sun invited me and ashia.

From Ashia: Tayo lang isinama ni Sun, yung dinner daw para lang sa mga kaibigan nya sa kabilang school, reunion ata.

To Ashia: Zad's here at my house.