The Dark Room.

AFRAID.

I'm scared, I'm scared of the person I'm staring at in the mirror.
I'm scared of what she has become,
I'm scared of what she could do, do to herself,
I'm scared of me.

I'm scared of the so many moving pupils in those sockets of theirs.
I feel their intentions,
It's a whole dark world I don't want to explore.
I'm scared of their words, of their thoughts, what do they think, oh how they talk.
I'm scared I'll flinch and I'll stammer,
And they'll find me out.

I'm scared of the truth, I lie awake every night,
Courtesy of my demons,
The voices that never fade, urging me on into my grave.
I'm scared of life and love, seeing my heart shatter,
I'm scared because I'm not strong, it's just an act.
I'm scared of them that they'll see me cry
And my tears won't hide it. They'll find me out.

I'm scared, I'm scared that I won't make it.
That I'll let you down, all your hopes in me.
I'll crush them.

I'm scared, that I won't ever change, my fears will consume me till I disappear.
I'm scared of fading away, like a dandelion, I'll scatter.
No one will trace me.

I'm scared of time, it never waits, it'll never wait.
Never understand or feel, it'll just keep running.

I'm scared, I'm scared that I'm getting a bit too cold, growing a bit too fast and growing up a bit too slow.
I'm scared, no one will save me, because I'll have noone left.
I'm scared I'm losing this battle.

I'm scared of you, me, him, them, words, thoughts, feelings, voices, time, darkness.... failure.
I'm scared, I'm so scared.
I've been shouting for help all my life, but no one can read minds.

So I'm scared, that it might already be over, for me...

Or maybe I'm just afraid,
And we all have fears
So it's ok.
It's ok.

I'm ok.