My case

Chapter 1:To hell with you and your game!.

She sits in front of me facing me. She smiles and says let's play . Sure I reply. She says let's play doctor camping secret agency. Ok sure. I respond. She takes a blanket and drapes it over the two of us. She smiles and then says I'm the doctor. I nod and she proceeded to cup my face and rub my cheek with the pad of her thumb. She moves down entangling my hair in her fingers. She holds my shoulders and gliders her hands down my arms then grabbing my hands intertwining them. Then goes to my very undeveloped chest and slides down my sides. Landing her hands on my thigh. I feel weird as this is not what doctors do because I've been to the doctors enough times to know that's not right. She opens my legs a little and grips my inner thigh.

I jolt awake with tears forming in my eyes and I let them fall. I hold my legs to my chest . I put my face down. I look at my phone It's 3:27. I sigh and lay back down still crying. It's been like this for more than a month. I still have no idea why it happens now... I'm to scared to go to sleep, my phones locked most of my apps. I can write. I can draw. I can cry and scream and just let it out because no one here to make fun of me. I put on my hoodie and grab my shoes in hand. I write on a post-it note.

Hey mom...., I went outside I woke up and didn't want to go to sleep I'm in the back yard in my spot.

❤️ lorri

I tip toe out by the backyard sliding door. I plop on my shoes and see my dog. Hey wolf. ! How are your a good boy Huh? Goood~ booyi.

I walk to the black gate but it makes a lot of noise so I move the small rocks away and it slides but makes a bit of noise.. when I hear the noises I look at the house and to the window that is my parents room.  I sigh of relief when nothing moves or turns on or peaks through the blinds.

I walk through and at an angle I go to the left to a brick wall that's a bit over what seems to be 5 ft. I climb the small 5 hallow metal bars and sit on the wall. I look at the stars. I look at the trees. I breathe air that I hope will make me relax. My music plays on my phone as it is one of the apps I can use. I pop in my ear buds and take a deep breath. I say Siri play indie pop on pandora.

Playing indie pop on pandora. She responded in her monotone voice that still somehow had emotion. I relax as "wish you were gay by claud" played. I run my small chubby hands through my hair pushing it back and I tilt my hair to my left. I look at a little girl who's running with her mom. I cry. She looks so happy. She seems so excited so innocent. I was innocent except someone touched me. Where they pleased how they pleased. I thought it was all a game. I was too young to know that it was a lie. She said that so she could touch me . I need to scream. I take off my sweater and put it over my mouth. I scream yell curse *muffled* "DAMN YOU" "I HATE YOU" "AHhHhhHh" I sob. Jumping down from the wall I slide down the wall. "Your sick" you hurt me" "you made me want to die." " Your the reason I still want to die and take my life" " I hope your proud of yourself....ruining your younger cousins life" "my mom just needed a place to stay and you USED ME!!! my mom JUST NEEdED HELp.!! My voice became weak and scratchy. My voice was now a whisper. How can so many people like you. ? Do they know what you can do?? Why me? Why do that to anyone?

I hope that game goes to hell with you.