Keep On Keeping On

A Faint Hope

After years of maturing,
With my mind and heart growing;

I thought I was content,
My life with no event;

But a glimpse of joy told me once more,
Is this really something worth living for?

A shallow husk of a man,
My life with little or no plan;

Going through each and every day,
Watching the time slip away;

What had once brought me joy,
Was left is ruin, destroy;

My life feels so meaningless,
I am left without purpose;

That hint of joy and love,
That feeling from her above;

Reminded me,
That feeling, happy;

And with that faded feel,
Left much to appeal;

My current life,
nothing but strife;

I long for that warm touch,
But it only feels as a crutch;

I must be able to stand on my own,
And for my plights I must atone;

But I fear I will be the same,
Alone and in such great pain;

For I will not fulfill my desire,
Instead light myself on the pyre;

For it is love I do not deserve,
These past scares will always reserve;

The mistakes I've made and the people I've hurt,
There is no way for me to revert;

And is such the way,
That I behave;

Alone and never again to flirt.