The Heaven System

Prologue

The downpour was bad, the skies were almost the color of black. A very fitting scenery for this moment. 

"We both know how this will end, Ira." I said, trying to avoid his gaze. Ang hirap, nakakasal at higit sa lahat ang sakit. Thinking what his face may express at this situation, Masyido nang masakit ang sitwasyon namin at ayaw ko nang dagdagan pa iyon sa pamamagitan nang pagtingin sakaniyang mukha.

"Just like that? You won't even try would you." I trembled at his words, I tried to keep my composure but I think I failed dahil mukhang napansin niya iyon.

nakatitig ako sa tasang hawak hawak ko ngunit pansin ko pa rin ang kaniyang mga paa na onti onting lumalapit sa direksyon ko. He kneeled on the sofa sa pagitan ng aking mga hita at kinulong ang aking ulo nang daganan ng dalawa niyang kamay ang aking sinasandalan. It was just like a perfect scene, even the rain pouring was like a background sound for this situation, but unlike in movies, It wasn't a romantic scene. Kung bibigyan ng Genre ang pelikula namin ay sigurado akong Tragedy ito.

"You've always been like that, you won't risk anything if you're not a hundred percent sure."  Because of the close proximity His men's Perfume flooded my nose, my favorite scent. Him.  

I refused to look into his eyes kahit na alam kong nakabaon na ang kaniyang paningin saakin. "We're both already broken. Let's not be the death of each other." I said trying to act nonchalantly as I sip the remaining contents of my cup. 

Siguro ay ito na ang pinaka huling chansa na makikita ko ang kaniyang mga mata kaya naman kahit alam kong masasaktan lang ako ay inangat ko pa rin ang aking mga mata na agad naman niyang sinalubong. And I regretted that choice, Isang tingin niya lang ay parang gusto ko nang bawiin lahat nang aking sinabi at yakapin siya. Visible hurt was plastered across his face. We stared at each other for awhile, his hawk like eyes stared into me, He knew that despite my brave Facade I was affected by him. 

He closed his eyes while He move and sat beside me, I took that chance to stand up and leave. "You know what I always say, right?" sabi niya habang nakatingin sa labas ng bintana niya, silently observing the rain. 

I chuckled as I left and went to his door, nang makalabas na ako ay saka ako napabulong sa hangin. "You're Ira, and you always get what you want." I smirked at the memories that simple phrase brought me, and it devastated me more thinking that those memories will be the only thing left of us. 

                                                                 "Maybe in our next life, Ira. "