Forgotten pain

Chapter one

A/N
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1. This is 16+ but I know some of y'all sneaky things will read anyway because that what I'd do.
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Nuara's POV

I'd always imagined my future. I wanted kids but I didn't want to rely on anyone, not even my lover if I had one. So, I wanted to adopt teenagers because god forbid how much I hate babies. They cry, eat, shit, and then cry some more. As much as I'd love some cute Pinterest baby photos, I'd rather save my sanity.

As for the lover thing... I hadn't really planned on falling in love, I was pretty sure I was going to end up alone so why would I even bother? But as soon as I saw his face, I knew I was never going to fall in love with another.

There he was, standing right in front of me. The S.O.B. actually came back.

He was godly. Who knew the military could make a man so gorgeous and handsome. He had green eyes so piercing each time he looked at me it was like he saw straight into my heart. He was big, around 6'3, and his muscles were bulging out of the black t-shirt he wore. The jeans, along with the shirt, were also displaying his strong thighs. I'm not saying I looked down there but his muscles weren't the only bulging thing.
His face was stone cold as if he'd seen some dark shit in his life which I no doubt he had.
His lips pressed into a thin line as we stared at each other.
Then I realized, this motherfucker has the audacity to come back.

I was raging inside, he left me. He told me that I was too good for him after I spent years trying to hold onto our friendship. He was never the outgoing type so it was me who approached him in high school. We became best friends as seniors but we both knew we wanted to be more. When he left to join he'd told me, when I come back, you're mine. If he thought I was going to be his after he left me in the dirt during the hardest part of my life, then he's got another thing comin'.

I was contemplating my entire life with him when the asshole decided to speak up.
"Nuar-" he started,
"Shut up" I slightly shouted. People started to look at us making me feel even more self-conscious. I was walking my dog in the park. My 10-year-old half-deaf chihuahua. She had three teeth and was blind in one eye.
"Don't come near me, I don't ever want to see you again. I hate you." I whisper-yelled. He hadn't even said my full name and I was already tearing up.
"Liste-" he said.
"No" I interrupted again and turned to run away. He let me run knowing if he chased after me, I wouldn't make it one block.

I ran 2 blocks and I was already wheezing. Fuck, I'm so unathletic. I know that isn't a word but it describes my athleticism perfectly. I couldn't run anymore so I started walking. Maybe I should stop eating so many conchas...Nah. It's because my periods coming up.

I completely forgot that I live like 10 minutes away so as I walk towards my apartment complex I see a black car. You know, like the one batman has but without all the weapons. And I'm no good with cars, but I'm pretty sure it's really expensive.
And you'll never guess who gets out of the car.

Him.

Jeezus fucking Christ when did he get rich?
Maybe I should give him another chance.
No, hold yourself together Nuara, you are no gold-digging bitch. At least not to him.

Gosh, all I want to do is kiss him and slap him at the same time. But if he thought that I wasn't good enough to stay for, then I will be good enough for myself. I swear he will never get to me again.

I decided to not make a scene here because I didn't want my neighbors to think that I was complete batshit crazy for turning down this hunk of a man.

I pick up Gorda (my dog), her name is fattie in Spanish because she's kind of fat. It's like these dogs live forever considering the different foods with tons of spices my mother has given her when I was still living with them.

I start walking inside the building knowing he's following me.
All I whisper is "wait till we get inside and then we'll talk"
He silently followed me to my apartment and came inside as soon as I opened the door and walked in.

"Look, I'll give you five minutes before I smack the shit out of your pretty face," I say as soon as I put my dog on the floor.
"I miss that voice," he says.
I scoff.
"I didn't have a choice in leaving you," he begins.

" As if! You had a choice to leave or stay with me and you left! I wasn't good enough for you to stay! And I'll be dammed before I let you break me again!" I yell starting to cry again.

" I wasn't going to let you drown trying to help me, you saw how fucked up things were with me! I would rather kill myself than hurt you." He said, moving closer to comfort me but I took a step back and he got the message. 

" Yeah, well you did hurt me, and if you even for a second thought that I'd come running back to you then kiss my ass!" Piece of shit. 

" Look, I can't tell you the details but please understand that everything I did was to protect you" he responded oh so elegantly.

"Protect me from who?" I asked.

"From me."

"Why would I need protection from you?"

"Because I am a very bad person, "

"Huh? You're losing me now, stop talking like a seductive bad boy and tell me the truth." I am totally turned on right now. Shut up stupid brain. 
"You read too many romance novels," he said dismissing me. 
"Do not."
"Do too."
"Do not."
"Do too."
"Whatever pig brain, tell me the truth" I finally matured for a split second.

" I can't. Were you not listening to anything I was saying?" he says, annoyed. 

"No, I was listening except everything that comes out of your mouth is mostly lies." I retorted.

He starts coming closer looking very angry and delicious but I hold my ground.

"Look, it's nice to see you again but I don't have any time to reminisce about the past. I have school, a job, and someone to come back to every day.

" You do realize the dog is on the verge of death," he pointed out.

" No, she still got 15 years ahead of her and I think you should leave," I said starting to push him out of my apartment. He wouldn't budge but I'm really strong so I just started punching him.

" Ow, that hurts," he reclaimed while blocking most of my punches but so I nipple-twisted him.

"Holy shit, I'm leaving but only because I have something to do but I'll be back later, you can count on it." He said making his way out the front door.

When I got to the front door, I watched him go into the elevator and we held eye contact until the doors closed. That ass is so perky, I wish mine was like that. Why did he come back? 

I made a promise to myself that night.

No matter what, we will never become friends again. 

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