A Love Story Or Not

#41

Mujhe firse wahi  din yaad aa gaya, when she told me that I was coming in between your relationship.

Mein tum donon ke bich mein aane ka Soch bhi nahin sakti thi because I wanted you to have everything you deserve.

Aur fir meine apne aap se promise bhi to kiya tha ki I will never let your smile fade away, isliye usse Wapas le aayi.

That was the day, that I first realised that your happiness doesn't get affected just by me. Koi aur bhi hai jo tujhe bohot affect karta hai, koi aur hi hai uss dard Ke Piche.

I really wanted to be the only person who makes you happy but it wasn't the truth. It wasnt just me who could make you happy, Misha bhi thi.

When she came back, as in when I first met her, uss din mujhe realise hua ki tum donon kitna close ho.

I broke my heart myself. Khud Hi apna dil tod diya usse Wapas laake. That was the day that I realised Ki Jo mein feel karti hoon tere liye, wo tujhe kabhi nahi pata chalna chahiye. It would have scared you to know what I felt for you.

Bahut der tak pareshan thi aur fir agle din  tum donon mile. Even though you couldn't see me par mein tum donon ko dekh sakti Thi.

Jab meine tujhe aur usse dekha, I knew for sure ki meri feelings kabhi tere samne nahin aani chahiye because that would have been too selfish of me.

You were somebody's boyfriend, and I couldn't say it to a guy who wasn't even mine.

(Sidharth understood what she was getting at but he still didn't want to assume things. He wanted to hear her say it. Does she really?)

It broke my heart to see you both dancing so close. But I had to sing that song for you aur rote rote gaati to  funny lagti na.

(Shehnaaz's eyes were moist  but she giggled. Sidharth could  sense  the sadness in her voice and he held her hand assuring her that its okay).

Toh, I shut my feelings out and closed my eyes to shut you out. Pata Hai Jab mein wo  gana ga rahi thi na, I was imagining  you and me.

Lyrics perfectly match ho rahe the,

"Hai kya ye jo tere mere darmiyan hain,
Andekhi ankahi koi dastan"

Ho re hain na match?

(She asked Sidharth but didn't wait for his answer)

I imagined you and me dancing to those tunes, isliye Shayad Bina ruke, bina roye gaana Gaa paayi.

I sang with all my heart that day, just for you... and Misha...

Mt heart was breaking, it was into pieces, but I kept mending it just till the song ended.

I knew you would be upset to tujhe sahi karne tere paas aayi.

Uss Din Ghar jakar itna roi, tujhe bata nahin sakti Kitna. Mein shayad hi kabhi itna royi hongi.

Na Jante Hue Bhi Dil Ko Tune Toda tha mere.

But that day I knew, I knew for sure and I have known it ever since.

Itna Bharosa mujhe meri zindagi mein aur kisi Baat par nahin hai Jitna is par hai..

I have never truly believed in anything this much. It was as if, I was built with this. Matlab I know it's super cheasy, but aisa laga tha Ki mein duniya mein aayi  hi isliye hui hun.

Bohot koshish Ki,  ki tujhse Pyar Na Karun par jitni zyada koshish ki utna hi zyada  pyaar  ho gaya yr.

Mujhe na terse pyaar ho gya hai, positive wala nhi, gande waala pyaar. Wo hota hai na romantic waala, wo pyaar. Mohobbat wala pyaar, ishq wala pyaar.

It feels so real, you don't even know ki yah sab Kitna real dikhta hai.

Meine  apni life mein bahot Kuchh Kiya Apne carrier ke liye, bahot ladaai bhi ki par tujhse zyada real to  mujhe  Koi chiz  nahi  lagti, apna career bhi nhi, and trust me i love my career.

Shayad Jis Din Tujhe bola tha na first time, school mein, usi din kuch ho gaya tha.

Actually, not just 'Kuchh', bahot Kuchh ho gaya tha. Maine Kabhi Aisa feel hi nahin kiya bhi, but I still thank Ahana, Riya and Kaira because of that dare.

Nothing has ever felt this real and true in my life, Baba ji ki sau sachchi.

Wo Yaad Hai finale wala Din, Jis Din Salman sir Ne Mujhe gana gane ko bola tha? Uss din meine jo song gaya tha wo Sara Tujhe Dekhkar gaya tha. Uss Din Bhi Main Tere Liye Vahi feel karti thi Jo Aaj Karti Hoon aur jo usse pahle karti thi...

I know you only like me as a friend, actually you love me but just as a friend, and that's totally okay, seriously!

But, if after this confession of mine, you would want me to still be in your life as your friend that might take some time...

(She said, smiling sadly)

Dosti ka Pyaar Mein badalna bohot asaan hota hai but pyaar se dobara dost banne mein puri jaan nikal jati hai.

I really don't know how to become your friend anymore. I can not be just your friend after pouring my heart out.

All I wanted to say was that I am madly, unintentionally, crazily in love with you.

I love my heart a lot, because that's where I keep you. Just always remember, no matter how much times I say that I love you, my love is always going to be more than that.

I love you and it doesn't matter if you don't, kyunki tujhse pyaar karne ke liye mujhe teri zarurat nhi hai...

Shehnaaz completed her confession but before he could say anything, a call came from Maa. She picked up her phone and after talking hurriedly disconnected the call. She got up from her place and came in front of Sidharth.

" Chal mein niche jaa ri hun, Maa ka kuch kaam karna hai fir mujhe packing bhi karni hai. Tu bhi aaja, laa apna mug dede mujhe khaali hai to! Dekh kya ra hai? De naa!", she said in a hurry.

Sidharth just blankly gives her his mug and Shehnaaz races  without saying anything else about what she just confessed to him.

Uspe itna bada bomb gira ke, bina kuch bole hi chali gyi.

Par bina kuch bole kahan, kitna kuch to bola usne. Usse zyada aur kya bolti wo. Sab to bol diya usne...

Shehnaaz has finally confessed to Sidharth. How will he take it? Will he reciprocate? Shehnaaz is leaving for Italy, will he be able to tell her before she leaves? But dies he even love her?

Please VOTE and COMMENT to motivate me. Keep showering your love on me.

I love you all and you are my lovers 😂❤️