Reminiscing The Blueprints (COMPLETED)

Chapter 11-Get To Know Him More

"Nakahanda na raw po ang inyong tanghalian sa kubo, Senyorito." Mang isko said from behind. We're currently at the farm, kung saan makikita ang taniman ng gulay sa Hacienda.

Mahigit isang oras na rin mula noong kumunta si Dark sa harapan ko. Right now, he's holding my hand tightly as we face the staffs and learn about some few things about the Hacienda.

I didn't know what to feel actually. There's some part of me that wants to feel happy because finally gusto niya na rin ako, na sa wakas may nagkakagusto na rin sa akin, pero hindi ko magawa kasi alam kong may hangganan ang lahat.

The depth of whatever he is feeling for me right now is way too obvious, mababang uri ng pagkagusto lang. Isang uri ng pagkagusto dahil sa akin nabaling ang atensyon niya sa lumipas na tatlong buwan.

But after this? I doubt he'll still choose me.

I doubt he'll choose me over his Ex.

He'll plead bended knees for that girl... gano'n niya 'yon kamahal kaya ayaw ko ng umasang kami pa rin hanggang dulo.

Dahil ngayon palang... iba na ang pakiramdam ko.

Forever doesn't exist in this type of feeling. It's too shallow. I couldn't even predict anything, basta ang alam ko lang, masyadong mababaw ang nararamdaman niya para sa 'kin.

At the end of the day, alam kong panakip butas lang ako.

At the end of the day, I'll always be the second option but never his priority.

Palagi namang gano'n...

Will he still care for my feelings when the time comes that he'll be obliged to choose?

Or I'll stay as his playtime while they are still not back together?

"Here, try this." sinubuan ako ni Dark ng Lobster. Nag-isip pa muna ako pero binuka niya na agad ang bibig ko at sinubo 'yon sa akin gamit ang kamay. Wala na tuloy akong nagawa at kinain nalang 'yon.

"Masarap?" He playfully smiled. I just gave him a small smile and slowly nodded. But I didn't expect his next move. Dinilaan niya ang natitirang sauce sa mga daliri, hindi man lang inaalala na ginamit niya 'yon pangsubo sa akin. "Masarap nga," tango-tango niyang sabi.

I just rolled my eyes and continued eating. Nagsisimula na naman siya sa mga kalokohan niya.

Dark and Mang Isko were talking about the business and I can't understand some of their terms so I just didn't mind them. Dark is always glancing at me too, smiling but I chose to ignore it.

I stood up and told them that I want to take some photos of the beach. "Sigurado kang ayaw mo 'kong kasama?" Dark insisted.

I faced him and rolled my eyes. "Buong araw na tayong magkasama. Hindi ka pa ba nagsasawa?"

"Hindi," he immediately shook his head. "If it's you that I'm spending the day with... Bakit naman ako magsasawa?"

"Ewan ko sayo, Dark." I looked away and hid my smile.

"Kinikilig 'yong si Senyorita, Senyorito!" I even heard Mang Isko teased but my fiancé just laughed and stared at me from a distance.

Nanginginig ang kamay ko sa pagkuha ko ng litrato. Alam ko ring namumula ako sa mga oras na 'to. Tangina naman kasi niya, masyadong paasa.

I took photos all over the view and just walked towards the water even though the sun's heat was getting visible on my skin already. Ang init pero ang sarap sa pakiramdam ng tubig at araw na kumikinang sa balat ko.

I took different shots of the view and the people of this Hacienda. Ang iba pa sa kanila, ngumiti pa sa gawi ko habang kinukuhanan ko sila ng litrato. Naka-tsinelas lang naman ako kaya ayos lang na mabasa ng tubig ang paa ko.