Hope-Jaden Hossler

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Me and Jaden were still at hospital, I decided to talk this time to go through my social media's as I haven't been on them for ages. I saw loads of comments asking where I was and if I was okay on multiple of my tiktoks. I decided to post something on my Instagram

@itsella

hey bebes, I've seen a lot of your comments and dms and wanted to come on here to address them💕💕I'm fine, I haven't been posting cause somethings happened and I've been focusing on that mostly, I also wanted to say I'll be taking a break from all social media, I don't know how long but hopefully not long, I love you all, thank you for all your kind words and support💖

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I decided to reply to the group chat cause the only people I've really spoken to is Noen and Jaden

sway boys and the girls😎🤪 (an/ sorry I'm so bad at naming group chats)

me: hey guys
Avani: omg Ella
Bryce: are you okay, you never answered my call or texts
me: yeah I'm fine, sorry for worrying you guys
Abby: what happened, I saw your insta post
me: somethings happened with my mum, she got in a crash, she's in a coma right now
anthony: fuck, I'm sorry I wasn't their for you
Nessa: yeah I feel so bad right now
me: don't worry about it, I didn't tell you guys
griffin: wether you tell us or not, we'll always be here for you through everything
josh: buddys speaking for everyone when he says that
me: thanks guys, I love you all, I have to go now but I'll text you all later💕💕
Olivia: you better🥺
Dixie: I love you bitchhh❤️

I then went on tiktok and posted a draft of me and Noen dancing to say so, I captioned it 'taking a break from social media for a bit, explained why on insta💕enjoy this draft of me and my bestie @notnoen 🥰' then posted it before closing my phone and putting it in my pocket. To be honest, I was feeling so scared, I didn't know if my mum was going to wake up, the thought of my mum leaving terrified me.

~ time skip to 3 weeks later, sorry for the time skip🥺~

I'd been 3 weeks, my mum was still in a coma. Jaden was out getting food while I was with my mum, I was just taking to her when the machines starting beeping. Nurses and doctors ran into the room, telling me to leave. I was scared, my body was frozen, I tried to move but my body wouldn't let me. I was soon pushed out of the room, I stood their crying as they pushed my mum out.

I didn't know what to do, I was scared that my worst fears would become a reality. I leaned against the wall, slowly sinking down to the ground, crying, I pulled my knees up, putting my arms on them and resting my head on my arms. I sat their sobbing , around 15 minutes later I felt someone put their arm around my shoulder, pulling me into them.

Jaden: it'll be okay baby, don't worry, please don't cry, I hate seeing you like this

I leaned my head on his chest, not being able to stop the tears from falling, Jaden was whispering comforting words to me, kissing my head. After a while, I was still crying a bit, but I had calmed down.

Jaden: baby what happened
Ella: I - I was waiting for you and - and then the machines starting beeping, they made me leave the - the room and they took her out
Jaden: listen to me, I promise she will be okay

I sat their, head now on Jadens shoulder, not speaking. I felt numb, my life went from amazing to a mess. I just hoped my mum was okay, the only thing that would make me feel better right now is hearing mum mums voice. After around 2 and a half hours, a doctor walked over to us

Doctor: Ella Smith

We stood up

Ella: yeah that's me
Doctor: unfortunately, your mother did not make it. We tried our best to get her breathing back but we sadly couldn't

I felt like I couldn't breathe

Doctor: I'm very sorry for your loss, I'll leave you two alone, we'll be in contact with you later, my condolences to you and your family
Jaden: thank you

I felt Jaden take my hand and lead me out to his car, he helped me in and started driving. I didn't bother asking where, I wanted to scream and shout, my mother was gone, I wish it was me instead of her. I felt the car stop, Jaden got out and came and opened my side of the car, he took my hand again, helping me out the car, I could tell we weren't at my house because the path way was different, we kept walking till we stopped and I heard a door open, still holding hands, we went inside, closing the door after us,

Bryce: yo dude, Ella are you okay

I heard loads of footsteps, I felt someone walk closer to me

Noen: Ella, are you okay

I nodded

Noen: Jaden, do you mind if I speak to her for a bit, you can be their if you want
Jaden: ask her not me
Noen: Ella?
Ella: yeah sure

Still not making eye contact with anyone, I followed Jaden and Noen up to Jadens room, when the door closed I was pulled into a hug

Noen: I'm so sorry, I'm such a bad best friend, I should of been their for you
Ella: it's fine, and you were their for me

We went and sat on the bed

Ella: I don't know what I'm going to do now
Noen: why don't you move in here
Jaden: yeah, that's a great idea
Ella: no, I don't wanna be a burden
Jaden: you wouldn't be, all the other girls practically live here, so you can too
Ella: thank you both so much

I yawned

Jaden: you can sleep if you want
Ella: no, i need to wait for the doctors call
Noen: if the doctor calls we'll come wake you up
Ella: promise me
Noen: we promise
Jaden: do you want one of my hoodies

I nodded, he got up and waked over to his wardrobe grabbing a hoodie

Jaden: here

He gave it to me and I took off the one I was wearing and put his one on

Jaden: we'll leave you to sleep now, shout if you need anything
Ella: thank you guys, i really appreciate it
Noen: it's okay El, now sleep
Ella: okay dad

They hugged me then left the room, I waited a few seconds before getting under the covers. I started thinking about everything, about my mum mainly. She was gone, forever, and I didn't even get to say goodbye

I started crying, I put a hand over my mouth to muffle my sobs, just like I always used to before I met Jaden, I cried myself to sleep
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