Truth and Lies

Are You...

I should tell you guys that I am not trans and thus I don't really understand everything. I did some research for this chapter and understand enough to make this, but if I get anything wrong, please let me know

I didn't intentionally plan on writing this during Pride Month, it just happened

TW: Teeny, tiny mention of suicidal thoughts

Shuichi's POV

I randomly woke up late one night. I didn't have a nightmare and nothing loud woke me up. I just woke up. And quite frankly, I'm glad I did.

I felt something around my crotch area. I thought I had peed myself, but the liquid felt too thick. Then I remembered when I felt pain around my abdomen. Cramps.

I lifted the covers and saw blood all over the front of my boxers and the sheets. It wasn't too terribly bad, but the problem was that the blood was even there. I sighed and got out of bed. I hate all of this. I didn't have testosterone, so of course it was only a matter of time before my period started again.

That's right. I, Shuichi Saihara, was born with a female body. Of course, no one in this place knew. Not even my boyfriend. I honestly thought I'd be safe and not have to tell them. I wasn't ready to tell them, I just couldn't. But before I could even think about that, I have to clean up this mess.

After taking a quick shower, I took the bloody sheets off, relieved it didn't bleed through to the mattress. I didn't want to go to Kirumi to clean these, she'd be too suspicious. I guess I can only ask him.

"Hey, Monokuma?" "Do you prefer pads or tampons?" I jumped at how fast he got here. I turned and saw the black and white bear holding two boxes of the products he said. "Wait, how did you..." "I'm the headmaster of this school, I have to make sure my students are cared for."

I guess that's kind? I mean, he brought the products I would need. "I'm not gonna out you and I know you don't want to tell them." He muttered something under his breath before looking back up at me. "Just don't get blood on anything that isn't easy to wash. If you want the pads, I suggest using panties since they aren't gonna work on boxers."

I hesitated for a second. He could out me at any time, that's the easiest way to make me feel despair. But he wasn't going to. Just one more mystery for this school. He gave me the box of pads, I was never a fan of tampons, and came back with panties. My dysphoria was going to be through the roof this week since my binder was just going to make my cramps worse. I was gonna be in my room during this time, so no need for it anyway.

Monokuma took the bloody articles and left, leaving me to my thoughts. Why did I have to be born with a female body? I wouldn't have to hide anything, I wouldn't have to lie so they wouldn't find out about my period. I'm a boy, I should have a boy's body.

I just couldn't tell them. Kaito was homophobic, that's why Kokichi and I kept our relationship a secret. Who knew what he would do if he found out about this? And Kokichi...

Would he leave me? Would he be disgusted? Would he think I lied to him? God, I haven't had these thoughts in a long time and my clothes were only making things worse.

I laid down and covered myself with my blanket, going back to sleep to get my mind off my situation.

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It'd been a couple of days since I locked myself away. I lied and said I was sick and everyone just seemed to accept it, which was a relief. I only answered the door for Kirumi, who would bring me food and medicine. I mainly just laid in my bed wearing nothing but underwear and a shirt, not wanting to get blood on anything else, and read the books I would ask Kirumi to bring.