The Etc. Book

october 10 aGaIn

so uh

i sent an email to my "crush" (idk anymore i haven't seen him in 2 months and may never talk to him again soooo) basically apologizing for the whole October 10th experience.

I regret everything now.

I have a couple of predictions for how he'll respond.

we got
"ok"
the classic 👌

we have
"you like me don't you?"
which part of me hopes he says because then i can be like "fInaLlY" but then again i could just tell him straight up but I'm scared to cuz if he likes me back, i may just stop liking him? Cuz remember i don't even know if i like him anymore cuz how are you supposed to like someone if you don't even know who they are at said moment?

then there's
"no I'm sorry"
to which i say
aaaaaaaaaa---

and last but not least, we got
" "
which is probably gonna be it.
because he doesn't respond often.

and when he does (like that ONE time,) it's something uncomprehendable like THIS:
"haha good but not sure if sick was worse."
what does that even MEAN?

anyway I'm freaking out and he's probably not even gonna respond so like.
yeah.