Second Chance

Chapter 1

•Lucas

She's still got the same smile I've missed. Everything about her is the same, aside from her being with my brother. Maya's, Maya.

And there is me.

A mess.

A wreck.

"Shouldn't you be getting ready?" A voice yells from behind me.

I turn around. It's Riley. Of course it's Riley, I live with her. And Maya lives with Farkle.

She happy and I'm not for once.

Why did I let her slip out of my arms so easily?

I'll always love her more than Farkle will.

"Lucas!" Riley's voice snaps.

A shake my head, pushing all the memories of Maya out of my brain for the moment. They'll be back around lunch no doubt, they always come.

I push past Riley, knocking over some of the books on my bookshelf. It's a small apartment, but I've managed to fit every book I own in my room. I don't even like to read, Maya does.

Riley pulls her thick black hair into a bun and let's out a huff.

"I know you hate me saying this, but it's time you move on."

She leans down and helps me pick up the books that have fallen. My hand glides across the book I've caught myself reading millions of times in the past year, Perks of Being a Wallflower.

"Maybe it's sad that these are now memories. And maybe it's not sad."

Riley knows it's her favorite book.

"I was suddenly very aware of the fact it was me standing up in that tunnel with the wind over my face. Not caring if I saw downtown. Not even thinking about it. Because I was standing in the tunnel. And I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite."

I sigh and pull the books into the shelf.

"That's her favorite book, she only talked about it all the time while we were dating."

Riley groans at me.

We basically repeat the conversation at least once a month, or at least when the memories of Maya get to be to much.

I'm not always like this. Today just happens to be a day I saw a picture of Maya and Farkle together.

"Lucas it's time to leave that life behind."

"Don't you think I would if I could?"

"It's time you walk out that door and focus on living your life. It's time you stop thinking about Maya, because she's happy with our brother. Now is your time to be happy."

The thing is without Maya around I've been so lost. I miss when she used to follow me around as a kid, even though it used to annoy me. I miss her lips touching mine, especially that day on the beach.

I miss everything about her.

"Lucas!" Riley snaps again.

I must be zoning out on her.

"I want you to go to work and promise me you'll try and find someone else to love."

I cringe at the word love.

Those three words I never told Maya, I felt them, but never said them.

"Fine. Just go find someone you like."

"I'll try. No promises though."

I know I should be listening to her, she's given up two years of her life to take care of me. I don't really need her to take care of me, I just need her to remind me that Mayas never coming back.

Because you don't get second chances.

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Okay.

Well this was definitely more depressing than I thought it was going to be. But this is actually a really good start I think. I hope it is.

The start will contain some Maya and Farkle but as is goes on it will become Lucas and Maya.

So please just keep reading.

Ce xo