DEAF HINATA AU - The Sound of Silence

• worried •

Hinata POV
As soon as I pull up to my house, I skid my bike while parking it, falling flat on my face.

I didn't care though, I didn't even feel it.
I pick myself and practically slam the door open.

As soon as I walk in, my mum peers in through the kitchen.

Her lips read: "Where have you been?"

I pant and look at her blankly, trying to catch my breath.

"M...mum" I stutter, knowing that JSL or sign language would make her mad.

She sighs.
"Message me next time"

I've been gone for 24 hours without any warning and all she can say is 'message me next time?'

I feel myself freeze up as she walks closer to me.

I close my eyes as she wipes her thumb on my cheek.

As she pulls her hand away, I see blood on her finger.

Probably from when I fell down just then.

She sighs again and gestures for me to come with her.

I do without hesitation.

She sits me on a chair, and she's sitting on a similar one right opposite to me.

She pulls out a first aid kit, and I flinch with every touch of the alcohol wipe.

She giggles and asks (from what I can make out):

"Were you at a girl's house?"

I feel myself turn pink and shake my head aggressively.

"K...kage...yama" I say

Her eyebrows twitch as she continues to clean my injuries.

"No" she says "You were at a girls house, right?"

I shake my head and sign:

I was at Kageyamas house, mum

She grits her teeth and shakes me violently.

I guess she just snapped out of her 'loving mother' mood.

"Where were you, again?"

I could tell she was shouting again.
She panted and stopped shaking me.

"A...girls...house"

"Good." she said, letting go of me "Just tell me next time"

She sat and smiled, cleaning up the scratch on my face.

I was uncomfortable, yes, but she just bandaged it and went back to cooking.

As soon as she left, I walked over to Natsus room and knocked on the door.

I slowly looked into it.

When she saw me, she hugged me tight.
I smiled a little and hugged her back.

I guess she wasn't expecting mum to come pick her up.

She pulled away and signed, 'Where were you?'

I sighed.

'Don't worry about it'

Kageyama POV
Hinata didn't message me the whole weekend.

Come Monday morning and I'm worried as hell.

It feels stupid to be as worried as I am; after all, nothing really happened between us.

Although I wanted to, but I of course chickened our when it really came to it.

I've been thinking about it for awhile, making a move, but of course I'm way too scared to do it.

I get a glimpse of Hinatas orange locks and run up to him.

He seems surprised to see me, which is strange considering we walk together everyday.

'Where've you been?'

I sign to him.
He sighs.

'Sorry'

I look at him.

He didn't look sad like I thought he was seeing him from afar.
He looks worried, and almost uncomfortable.

'what's wrong?' I ask him.

He smiled sadly at me and shakes his head mouthing, 'nothing'

He's pretty inactive the rest of the walk. Sometimes he'd start kicking a rock or sighing sadly.

When we were changing, it finally hit me.
Was I the reason he was so down?

Maybe that last hug was a little too close for him, after all I got so close to kissing him.

Maybe he was avoiding me all weekend?
Maybe that was the reason he looked so uncomfortable this morning.

I felt sick thinking about it.
Did I just ruin the best relationship I had with a small mistake.

"Kageyama!" Daichi puts me out of my thoughts with a name-call. "Come on, get changed"

"Y...yes sir!"

I sighed and put my shirt on.
I haven't been this worried in awhile.

Hinata POV
I never listen to whatever my mum says to me, but what she told me on Saturday really got me thinking.

What would she do if I was in a relationship with a guy?

What would I do?

I was thinking about it all weekend.

The thought of it wasn't bad at all, in fact, I just couldn't picture me with a girl.

I thought about Kageyama and I.
Sure, we got real close that one time, but nothing actually happened.

As I though about it more, my impression of him became greater than him just being 'cool'

Everything about him was amazing.

He was tall and ripped.
His hair was dark and his eyes were beautiful.
On top of that, he learnt sign language just for me.

I screamed into my pillow thinking about it.

Damn it.
I really liked him.

The real question is, did he like me back?
The doorstep was the closest we've ever gotten.
Then again, we did sleep together?
But it wasn't really mutual, I just sort of crawled in when he was sleeping.

Maybe he thought that was creepy?
Maybe he thought I was creepy!

"Oh my god!" I internally thought to myself "What if he doesn't like guys!"

I felt myself getting flustered and punched my pillow.

Then, I was worried.

Maybe he'll stop talking to me?
Maybe he'll think I'm weird and clingy.

I should talk to him.
No!
That's just more weird and more clingy.
Damn it this is so frustrating.
I know what to do.

I'll just avoid him!

Kageyama POV
Hinata didn't so much as look at me the whole practice.

He was in his own world, silently hitting the ball around.

I thought about asking him about it, but I got interrupted every time.

"Kageyama, can you hold this for me?"
"Hey, can we practice something"
"Do you know where my drink bottle is?"

After all of that, the only time that I got to talk to him was after school when we were walking home.

I stopped suddenly and he turned to look at me.
I signed to him:

'Hey, are you avoiding me?'