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in no way am i trying to attack anyone i'm just sad.
i'm questioning my sexuality. i always thought i was straight but.. i can tell if i'm bi or lesbian..
so anyway i'm stressed and scared but not even because of that.
somebody, i liked her more than a best friend.. we haven't been friends for almost a year. i found out recently she talked behind my back.
she called me bratty, emotionally manipulative, bossy, the short fat girl nobody likes, annoying, a bitch, a douchebag, a whore, a slut (more than once), and said my anxiety and mental breakdowns were all attention seeking behaviors behind my back.
as a girl who has never done anything dirty or even been in a relationship- this hurts. i trusted her and loved her like a best friend and maybe more?..
i've had anxiety since i was in primary/elementary school.. kindergarten/year one elementary school.
now i'm not only questioning my sexuality but i'm questioning who's my real friends or not because the same girl who called me those things behind my back called me beautiful and gorgeous.
now i am short and thick so why is she hitting my insecurities head on?
why the hell do people have to hurt me so much?
why do i let them manipulate me?
i don't know.
elixir
