So I'm not even angry but I'm really sad so- yup.
I have trust issues, kay? It takes time for me to open up.
I have opened up to so many people and they all make me so happy but..
Something minor happened the other day and it hurt like hell.
A bit of backstory here, I'm insecure about my looks and personality. Lately I've been feeling prettier, mainly due to my friends hyping me up and making me feel like I deserve to be happy. My life is currently a turmoil other then quarantine so
I'm just overwhelmed. Anyway- I've been doing really good.
Today I got some insane news and I've been kinda off but still in a good mood as the day proceeded. Though last night one of my best friends said our other friend said I was annoying because I say "tea".
It's a bad habit- I know but it really hurt. My ex best friend called me annoying a lot and it just really hurt.
I'm not the type of person to just talk about my feelings openly and uh- some of my friends can see this rant book heh..
The point is it hurt like hell even though it was minor because it hit a nerve and now I'm overthinking my entire behavior and personality.
Everything in my life is crazy right now and I'm scared and hurting and confused because I have to change my entire lifestyle. I just don't understand unnecessary comments...
To make matters worse the friend who called me annoying didn't say it to my face she said it to one of my guy best friends and my other guy friend.
Why can't I just be happy?
Sincerely,
Silvir
