Rants of an extroverted introvert

My first crush

Hello everyone.

Before I start ranting, I would like to introduce  myself.

Myself, Priyanka Malhotra.

okay, i will stop.

wattpad, has got awesome features.

*clear throat*

my name is priyanka malhotra.

It's a fake name, obviously but I prefer this more than my real one as I can be myself with this one and few assholes aside no one will judge me.

I am 20 years old and just had my first crush. It's sad isn't it? First crush at the age of 20,*Sigh* what's more sad is that he is a celebrity. Now, most of us celebrity crushes doesn't mean much I mean it's not a big deal. But for those who don't share this opinion, I feel you.

My whole 20 year life, okay not exactly whole 20 but for last 7 to 8 years I was waiting for the feels you get when you have a first crush. The tiny tiny details you observe about the person,the way they smile and you feel warm all over and there even a hint of attention makes you feel like the luckiest person alive,right?

I have been waiting for this feeling while friends discussed these stuff on daily bases saying things like "Priyanka, you will not understand" and I was like I want to understand. In my waiting period, I even considered myself asexual, cause you know I found all the boys idiots and girls were hard to talk to, mostly because i couldn't find anyone attractive or my type.

After all this waiting this is what I get. I have a crush on WANG YIBO.

That's right the multi-talented actor/singer/dancer/motorcycle rider/the cutest person alive/I don't know I could go one forever.

YA, THAT"S HIM!!!

*calming my racing heart,you poor thing*

Sigh now, you all would want to know what lead to this,right?

Well , I will tell I am free anyways, So I was reading this Chinese book translated to English called ' Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation' and it's great. I mean it is probably the best thing but that's for the next rant if you are interested.

 Anyways, so everyone in the comment section of the youtube channel including the "youtube" recommended the drama " the untamed". It's horrible, no offense to any fans of this drama series. It's not horrible for the acting or camerawork or any other stuff. It's horrible because even if the acting is sugoy ( i mean amazing, it means amazing in japan,if i am wrong please correct me) , the plot is bullshit I mean the missed so many stuff from the book, if it's a movie I can understand but if it's a tv series what is stopping you. 

If do it make it perfect dammit, anyways so I was watching these spoof videos and that's when I first saw he's smile and I was like lan khan is not supposed to smile , where is your poker face? I know I was watching the spoof and slowly and gradually, okay it took me 2 minutes to start liking his smile, his personality, his liveliness and there's my first crush. I was practically binge watching his interviews and the other stuff and then I watched him dance him on the song swalla , my heart can't take it. Why can't he be a normal person, who I meet at the airport, why?

He is 22 guys. 22.

I even messaged him through Instagram. Sigh, it's embarrassing , why did my first highly anticipated crush had to be a celebrity who won't even know my existence. I envy those who had a first normal crush. Anyways, I hope you found my misery entertaining and please pray that he will at least see my messages.

Sigh, I have got to google how to move on from a heartbreak.

It's going to hard.

ps: sugoi is a japanese word for amazing that got to know from animes. i like saying it. masaki says it best. 

pss: i hope that i can get some suggesting about my next rant, i mean i don't expect to popular overnight but i hope i can atleast get 1 or 2 suggesting.

until then , i am going to sleep, i got nothing else to do.