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hurt

i've done fucked up

i went from planning to ask out the guy i like from stomping on his foot and running away.

"i hate myself!"
i screamed into my pillow so all you could really hear was muffles

"you know what? i couldn't agree more."

"seungkwan get out of my room."
i sat up to see my younger brother with his annoying smile on his face. don't get me wrong i love my brother but right now i would also love to use him as a punching bag

"i'm not in your room."
he sneered in response pointing to his feet which was clearly outside of the border

"then do me a favor and shut the door in your face."
i smiled sarcastically before throwing myself into the pillow again

seungkwan ignored my words and came sauntering in as if he owned the place
"why is your room so clean, mom and dad isnt even here to tell you to stop being a pig."

"i cleaned up because i wanted to."
i replied back "now get out before i knock you out."

"hmm." he stroked his chin "clean room, mom and dad not here, heart broken noona and a hot dance captain." he listed, linking all the relevant terms

how did he know?

"what are you going on about stupid."
i remarked

"i'm talking about how you failed to get the dance captain kwon into your room whilst mom and dad aren't home."

i swear this guy is a mind reader or something

"no-

"noona, i'm your beloved brother there's no point in lying to me." he flopped on my bed taking one of my teddies

i threw up arms up exasperated to show i gave up
"fine! i tried to get soonyoung over so i could confess to him. are you happy now?"

"happy to see you're finally whipped but really?kwon? i thought you'd go for junhui hyung, he's hot."

"he has a girlfriend." i reminded him

"yeah that roa girl, she gives me the crazy girl vibes." he shivered just thinking about her "out of the last two i thought at least one of them would catch feelings for you. don't get bigheaded, they probably never seen a girl up close before."

i scoffed
"wonwoo and jihoon? as if, both of them hated me at one point."

"there's a thin line between love and hate. plus you never know with quiet guys. they can be a super tsundere and apparently they have the biggest di–

"okay! so we established that neither of them likes me."

seungkwan shrugged
"i'm just saying, i don't oppose if you dated either of the three."

i frowned in response
"why just three of them, why not soonyoung."

my brother sighed
"come on noona, the guy just got of a year long relationship with one of the most popular girls in school. i don't think he sounds like a guy ready for a new relationship."