"How are you?" Mom, at the same time, My Doctor asked at naupo sa kama ko
"I'm doing good po" sagot ko at hinawakan ang mga kamay nya
"Why, Anak?"
"Ma may I ask you something?"
"Sure. Spill it"
"Kailan kaya ako possible na makakalabas dito?"
Huminga sya ng malalim at tinignan ako sa mata
Napansin ko ang puyat at pagod sa mukha nya
"Cairynne, You know that you are still under observation" malumay nyang ani
Yumuko nalamang ako at tumango
Car Accident. Yan ang sinabi nila saakin na nag-cause saakin ng Amnesia.
But I dont know..
It seems like something is not right.
Tulog ako sa loob ng dalawang taon. Last week lang ako nagising
Isa pang weird, may mga memorya sa isip ko na naririnig kong nag uusap ang mga tao. At may nag iisa na tila ba nakatatak na saakin
It was a Man's voice. Saying sorry for multiple times and I also heard him sobbing.
"Cairynne Andrea!" rinig kong sigaw ng pinsan ko dahilan upang maibalik ako sa realidad
Lumabas na pala ng kwarto si Mama. Hindi ko man lang napansin.
"H-Ha?"
"I was asking you what tint I should use. Goods ka lang ba?"
"Uhm Gem you told me that were very close talaga right?"
"Oo. Bakit mo natanong?"
"Theres thing thats bothering me kasi"
"What is it? May naalala ka ba?"
"Ever since I opened my eyes, I have never felt genuine happiness. Heavy feeling talaga"
"Alam ba nila Auntie yan?"
"Hindi. I dont know how to explain it. Every night, Umiiyak nalang ako bigla sa sobrang bigat"
"You're searching for something you dont know. Hindi ka kuntento"
"Parang ganyan na nga"
"This is bad.."
"Gem can you please be honest to me?"
"What do you mean?"
"Totoong rason bakit ako nagkaroon ng Amnesia at Bakit ako nasa hospital na 'to. Ano ba talaga ako noon? Sino ba ako? Paano ako as human? Who are my friends? May enemy ba--"
"Yes you were Involved in an accident. Pero hindi car accident. Someone accidentally pushed you downstairs"
Natahimik lang ako. I dont know. Hindi ako nagulat. Ineexpect ko ba?
"Whos that someone?" tanong ko at dali dali nyang kinuha ang cellphone nya
"Joseph. Your supposedly fiancé" sagot nito at may ipinakitang larawan
It was me with a Guy on his knees at may hawak na singsing
Napahawak ako bigla sa ulo ko at sandaling pumikit
Rinig na rinig ko ang pag aalala ng babae sa tabi ko ngayon
Napakasakit. Parang kinuryente ang utak ko
Naaalala ko na ang ipinakita nya.
"L-Lets continue.. What made h-him do that?" I managed to speak habang nakapikit pa rin at sumandal sa pader
There are scenes in my memory. Putol putol. Hindi ko maintindihan.
"Isang taon kayong Engaged. Maraming preperasyon ang ginagawa at busy naman kayong dalawa. Until you caught him c-cheating"
Cheating.
Because of that word, napamulat ako at napatayo
Sandaling natulala ako sa kawalan
Tama ang bawat salitang isinasambit nya
Alam ko na.
Red heels
Thats his mistress's wearing when I caught them.
yumuko ako at tumango tango.
"Gem, May I see your Neck?" mahinahon kong tanong
Nakita ko ang pag aalanganin sa mukha nya. Tila ba luluha na ang kanyang mga mata
Ngunit sinunod nya ako at ibinaba ang turtle neck na suot nya
"I g-got this when--"
"You got that when I was bloody furious. Kutsilyo ang gamit ko kaya nagpeklat ng ganyan"
Yes. Damn her.
"Kaya pala ganito nalang kabigat pakiramdam ko, Gem. Naka aligid palagi saakin ang sumira ng buhay ko" sabi ko at sarkastikong tumawa
"W-We wanted to keep everything as a s-secret because we thought its for the best"
"Ginawa nyo 'kong tanga. For the second time, You betrayed me little slut!"
"I-I'm sorry--"
"I forgot all those stupid things you guys have done to me but I will never forget how it pains me. Because I never tried to forgive anyone and the shitty scar will be forever in this damn heart"
"Please.. Cairynne"
"Makalimutan ko man ang ginawa nyo, Hinding hindi mawawala ang sakit at pagd-durusa"
"I'll do anything--just t-tell me"
"Fuck that Quotation Forgive but never forget. Its now forget but never forgive. I dont imagine myself forgiving a snake like you"
