What If...(STEVEN UNIVERSE)

PART THREE

He can't see me like this! How will he react?! He can't see this?..and if my eyes have been changing color then that's going to freak him out more, what I'm I going to say to him?!

"Steven he's not going to freak out, " I heard Garnet say.

"How do you know?" I asked. My voice was raspy. Why?

"Steven, we need you to take these, ok?" Pearl was holding the pills and a cup of water.

"Ok, " I said. I reach my left arm for the cup of water, pearl helped me take the pills, and the water felt nice. I chugged it down, I didn't realize how dry my mouth had been.

I heard the door open, and I saw dad come in.

Here it goes...the questions...about how it happened...how I got hurt...why I got hurt...and I can't even answer them.

"Hey, guys, could you leave? Nothing against you, of course, I just want to talk to him"

I felt garnet place me down... I didn't want them to leave... I didn't know everything...if he had questions I could answer what would I say?

"Hey, stu-ball," he said, sitting down.

"Dad- I can't answer all you qu-" he stopped me.

"Steven, I know what happened. It's ok. He took out a bag. He put his hand in it, pulling out a bag of chaps and a water bottle. He opened the bag, putting it next to me. I took one, and I was skeptical about eating it...but I did. When j finally swallowed it, I felt more hungry. I didn't realize it till now. He also opened the bottle for me, handing it to me. I drank from it.

" I guess this is going to be hard, huh?" He asked, looked at where my arm used to be.

"I guess..." I said.

"Steven, it will be ok. I know you were probably scared I'd freak out, but im not going to that " he said. It was loud..but I could still understand.

There was silence... I didn't know what to say.

"Thanks, Dad, " I said, leaning on his shoulder. I felt tired...like I had been running a marathon, I was exhausted. I felt myself falling asleep. I felt calm...but still confused...maybe...maybe in the morning ill get all the answers.

I woke up to lion scratching on the door, I could hear every scratch. It hurt...like nails on a chalkboard. I covered my left ear, unable to cover my other one.

I heard someone come up the stairs. I think it was Connie. She let lion in.

He came up to the bed, purring. It definitely sounded better than the scratching. I reached out my left arm to pet him. Connie made me stop.

"You can't move too much, " she said. She looked tired. Was that my fault?

"I was moving around a lot yesterday, " I said, sitting up. She rolled her eyes.

Was I making her mad?

"I'm sorry..." I said.

"I'll go tell the others you're up." She left.

I guess she hates me now...
I saw the gems walk up, and they came over to me.

"How do you feel?" Amethyst asked lightly.

"Better, " I smiled.

"Do you have any more questions?" Pearl asked.
"Some, " I said. Garnet held my left hand, why?

"So, I wanted to ask first, how was Spinel choking me yesterday?" I looked at them.

"Uh...Steven, Spinel is bubbled. You were choking yourself...did you see Spinel?" Pearl said.

I was choking myself?! I clearly saw spinel, I know I did!

"Hey, it's ok of you saw Spinel, you've verb through a lot, it's normal." Garnet looked at my eyes, and I saw through her vizors that my eyes were turning a bright pink. While I stared they got brighter and brighter. I think she saw, she took them off.

"The eye thing is ok Steven. You've been under a lot of stress. You've lost an arm for star's sake. So it's fine." She brushed her hand through my hair. I calmed down. So I was choking myself through an insane image...ok...

"What about Spinel? She's bubbled...but you didn't shatter her right?" I asked.

"Heavens no, we know you wouldn't want that....even if we were tempted. " pearl said.

"Can I see her gem?" I asked.

They seemed hesitant.
"Uh, are you sure dude?" Amethyst asked. I nodded.

"Ok..." Garnet left to get the bubble.

She came back and I saw the gem, it had some blood on it, and I was guessing it was mine...

"So, that's her?" I took the bubble in my left hand. At least I could still hold bubbles.

When I moved to try and make a bubble, I got a shot of pain. It ran through my back. Garnet took the bubble, sending her back to the temple.

"You ok?" I guess they saw me wince.

"Yeah...just some pain..." I said, trying to rub my shoulder. It was hurting so much.

"Here, it's your pain med." Pearl handed it to me. I took it.

I felt my stomach hurt now. I guess eating would be a good idea.. the only problem was, I wasn't hungry, yet I was.

"Here, we also have this" pearl said, holding some soup.

I ate some..but I just didn't have an appetite.

"Steven, you have to finish it," Connie said. I didn't want to make her more and so I finished, even if it made me sick.

"Connie...did I do something wrong?" I asked.

She looked at me coldly. I definitely did...but I don't remember it.

"Connie, please, talk to me. If I did something, you have to tell me. Because if anything did happen, I don't remember it." I said.

"Steven, you didn't do anything. I'm just, it's just a lot. This" She said. She sounded mad...

"Connie...I know it must have been hard to see me like that...like this...I know if this had happened to you I would be a mess. But...you know you can talk to me...if there's anything I can fix, let me fix it." I said.

She looked at me and walked over to the bed side.

I took her hand. "You have to talk to me...please..." I said looking at her.

"It's just...its not every day you have to carry your half-dead best friend into an ambulance. Or throw away your blood-soaked clothes. Blood soaked from your best friends blood..." She said, tears were falling down her face.

I hugged her the best I could. She hugged back. She was crying, I could hear her hiccup, crying harder. I rubbed her back. This must be so hard...but...Im going to try my best to make things right.