Doctor who oneshots

one big anomaly

I lay on my stomach listening to my music, my duvet brushing against my back and my elbows feeling as if they were going to bruise from how they've been holding me up.
I sigh and close my phone, spotify still playing music and walked over to my draws, picking out some underwear and a very large shirt I stole from The Doctor.
I pick out a towel from the TARDIS' cupboard and walk to the shower, I throw my stuff down and find the bath already run with my favourite bubbles in and the lights dimmed.

I connect my phone to my speaker and play my music, dancing a little bit when my favourite part came on.
I strip and jump in the bathtub after locking the door after me, I lay down and close my eyes, relaxing while my favourite song plays in the background.

I jump out of the bath and grab my towel, wrapping it around myself and drying myself off, I put on my clothes and get out, walking to my room again.
I sit down and my thighs spread out, making me sigh, looking at the stretch marks on them.
I look down sadly, I knew I was getting more positive but its hard when all you see is the flaws in yourself.
I hear the TARDIS hum and laugh quietly

"you little snitch.."

I shake my head and push myself backwards onto my bed and sit with my knees to my chest, waiting for The Doctor to come in.

I hear a knock on the door and ask

"who is it?"

"The Doctor, can I come in?"

"Doctor who? yes you can Doc"

I laugh at my joke, however I was still sad, it was like I was malfunctioning.

"what's up? The old girl told me something was wrong"

I nod my head and pat the side of my bed, he walked over and sat down, one hand resting to keep him upright.

"I was just having problems with myself again, I'm getting better but I still dont like the way I look that much.. in the grand scheme of things this isnt that much of a problem, I mean, whole galaxies are in war and poverty right now and I'm moaning because of a few marks? puts it into perspective a little bit"

I smile sadly, looking down

"heyyy, hey, no! you make a good point but.. this is the beauty of time, its seeing the smallest moments in the biggest picture, the small things are so big to us because time is so incomprehensible and huge!
but you lot, you're all like huge rifts in time, like one big anomaly! you lot are so unpredictable and can change history in the snap of a finger.
The decisions some of you make in life cause such large impacts on the history of the massive, inevitability of the universe that it creates small rifts on your bodies, so your marks are just reminders that you are so much greater than you think you are! your marks show how much impact you have on the entirety of the whole of history! whole species and galaxies and dimensions are altered by the choice of if you get coffee or tea in the morning, or if you decide to fight life one more day...
you are so, incredible that your body cannot physically withstand the amount of change you are making and you are so incredible! the more marks you have just shows how amazing you truly are and how many peoples lives you've saved and altered..."

we sat in silence for a second and then I reached in and hugged him, it took him a few seconds of awkwardness before reciprocating the hug and we sat for a while

"y'know what they say about hugs?"

"they're great at hiding your face"

I say, a tear rolls down my face and lands on The Doctors jacket.
he pulls back from the hug and wipes the tears off my face and smiles, I rest my hands in his and smile back.

I was one big anomaly, and he made sure to remind me of that. every day.

if you read this, I hope this makes you feel better if you need this!!!
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