You and Me

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Jay PoV

"When I give you the signal you need to try and knock out Markus" I pointed at the bat in his hand

"On my signal no earlier or later" He nodded

"How will I know the signal?" I checked nobody was coming to where we were stood

"You'll know" I sighed. Here goes everything.

Maya PoV

I kept banging on the door and rattling the handle trying to get it open

"Maya?" I heard a voice say weakly and it was almost a whisper I barely heard

"Dad!" I crouched in front of him and hugged him

"Markus.. he's w-won" he was struggling to get his words out

"No he doesn't have what he needs, we can take him down" I tried to stay positive but there's still so much that could go wrong

As I was sat there I heard shouting from outside it's started, I cut the ties on my dads hands and I helped him up and I headed to the door

I sat him down by the door and handed him the gun that was on the floor the one Jay knocked me out with so he had something to protect himself with

I need to focus, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath

I took out a bobby pin from my hair and stretched it out, I then crouched down and tried to unlocked the door

After a lot of trying I left the cabin and saw everyone, all the people who were hostages with bats, bricks, large slabs of wood or small knives fighting against the gang members

I felt like we could win this until I spotted Lucas sneaking up behind Markus, I looked in front of Markus and saw Jay kneeled in front of him bruised and bloodied he looked even worse, even more injured

Lucas hit Markus around his head which as much strength as he had and it didn't do much damage but as he was caught off guard Jay stabbed him and Markus fell to the ground

"NO!" I screamed and threw my knife that was in my boot

Another gang member had snuck up behind Jay and was about to stab him, I was too late with my throw though. The guy stabbed Jay right in his chest and then my knife hit the guy

I ran as fast as I could up to Jay and crouched by his side holding my hands over his stomach and holding him in my arms 

"No no, you're not leaving me" I cried trying to save him

Lucas crouched beside me "Take off your jacket" I shouted at Lucas and he quickly took off his jacket

I held the jacket up to Jays wound and put pressure on it "Lucas go help the others" Lucas hurried away to try and help some of the other campers

"Somebody call a goddamn ambulance" I yelled and then turned my attention back to Jay

"Ww-why would you do that?" I stuttered trying to stay strong

"I had to do this to- to make sure you didn't try to do this yourself" He was struggling to talk he was really weak

"No it's supposed to be me not you" I cried and Jay weakly smiled

"It's okay" He softly said

"This isn't how it was supposed to go it should be me, to fix all the damage I've caused." I gasped for breath trying to keep myself more calm

"Y-you can't die for me okay it's wrong" I was holding off a wave of tears this can't be happening

"I don't know saving the girl I love and taking down a whole criminal gang seems pretty right to me" he weakly smirked

He gasped struggling to breath "We did do it right?"

I nodded "Yeah yeah we won"

He coughed and spluttered "Jay!" I shouted

"It's okay Ace, really" He was trying to be strong for me he always was

I shook my head tears still steaming down my cheeks "Just hold on okay the ambulance will be here soon, you're going to be okay"

I was trying to convince myself but it wasn't working "It was a slim chance I was going to survive those injuries but that was just the final blow"

"I didn't say it" I bit my lip trying to hold off tears

"Say what?"

"Don't die out there" He weakly laughed

"I don't think that's the reason for this" I know he's joking but it's all my fault

"You always liked to be reminded but I thought it was obvious not to die" I softly smiled

"Well who doesn't like to be reminded?" He's in pain and dying yet he's still joking and being himself

He slowly moved his hand and placed it over mine

He coughed again, blood appearing on his lips "I'm scared" he admitted

"You'll be okay" I kept repeating it like the more I said it the more it would be true

"Wh-what do you think it's like?" He was struggling to talk but he still did

I sniffled "I'm sure it's beautiful, whatever you want it to be like"

He coughed up blood and his eyes slowly closed "Jay! No no no don't go" I held my hand to the side of his face

He weakly chuckled "I'm not dead yet"

"Just hold on a little longer" I kissed his forehead

"I can't take it if you..." I couldn't even finish my sentence

"I can't just.. I can't just say goodbye there's too much I want to say and need to say" There's so much I haven't told him that I want to, like how I'm sorry, I forgive him, I love him.

"Me too" He took a few breaths trying his hardest to stay awake

"Come to think of it I just did I mean I tried, we didn't even realise it" A tear rolled down his cheek and he forced a smile

"Realise what?" What is he on about?

"A moment ago, it's the first time I said I love you" We've both never been able to say it

"Who would of thought it'd take one of us dying to say it" he joked trying to make himself and me feel slightly better

"I'm not scared anymore" I smiled at him, and he smiled back

"I'm in the arms of my first love, the girl I'll always love" he weakly held his hand up to my cheek

"I-I love you Maya Hunter" he gulped struggling to breath and talk

"I love you too" Jay smiled and I slightly smiled through my tears

His hand fell from my cheek "Jay!" I cried holding him closer to me

I let out a bloodcurdling scream and gasped for breath, I held him closer and cried more than I ever have before. It hurts it physically hurts me, he can't be gone he can't be.

Lucas rushed up to me and he tried to comfort me but I couldn't look away from Jay, his lifeless body in my arms

I drowned out the the rest of my surrounding, I kept gasping for breath as I cried holding his body closer to me

Ambulance workers came up to us and tried to take him away "No he's not gone he's not dead" I shouted but I was mainly talking to myself

They put his body on a stretcher and carried him away, Lucas held me in his arms trying to calm me down

I looked down at my bloodied hands and started crying even more. This is all my fault, I should of been the one who was up here, I should be dead not Jay

He was always only trying to protect me and I hated him I broke up with him and broke his heart, if I had just stayed with him and stayed at the academy none of this would of ever happened

He would still be here if it wasn't for me.