ugh → l.h ⋆ a.i

117 - ASHTON!

kait
i have a question

ashton
okay

kait
you have feelings for someone
i know that much
i've known for a very long time
but i don't know who
and it's bugging me a lot

ashton
oh
idk

kait
you owe it to me to tell me, you know that
i don't deserve to feel like shit or that i wasn't enough for you
and i especially don't deserve to feel like i was just a distraction

ashton
you weren't
I liked you
I seriously did

kait
but

ashton
but this is stronger than me just liking you

kait
oh

ashton
I've felt this way since 2016
and it's terrifying
but I did like you
you were never a distraction
and you were absolutely more than enough
this had nothing to do with me just choosing you as a second option
please believe that
because I do care about you

kait
but you love her?

ashton
him
I love him

kait
oh
well

ashton
yeah
and I've somehow convinced myself that regardless of me being in love with a man, I'm straight
because like, I'm on tour with some really fucking shitty people, I've come to find
and I am so far from ready to come to terms with this

kait
you said you've liked him since 2016?

ashton
yeah

kait
I think it's well past time for you to not accept these feelings😂
they're clearly real
you don't have to be afraid of them
and if people say shit then kill them

ashton
lmao
my other issue is that he definitely doesn't feel the same way

kait
how do you know
have you asked

ashton
...no

kait
exactly

ashton
fuck
it's sCARY, ALRIGHT.
I AM IN A BAND WITH THE MAN.

kait
holy fuck-
oh my god
calum or luke

ashton
LUKE

kait
shit

ashton
IM SO FUCKED

kait
ITS GONNA BE OKAY
I PROMISE

ashton
FUCK