Nothing has changed

03

"Mom, don't do this to me! Ayoko roon!" Pagmamakaawa ko sa aking ina. She decided to bring me in Catipulo. What will I do there, huh? Swim all day? Bored all night? The hell, no way!

Mom pushed our vase which caused loud sound. My tears are falling down my cheeks. Hindi ko kakayanin 'to. Galit na galit sa akin si mom. You can sense her anger because of her reddish ears.

"April.." napailing siya, "I never imagined to have a daughter like this.. anak ang sabi mo mag aaral ka lang. Maiintindihan ko pa kung nag ba bar ka.. but kissing a guy like that?" Umiling muli siya.

I saw anger, fear and hurt in her eyes. Some tears fell down her cheeks. Shit. It hurts.

My dad went down the stairs while looking at us, fighting like this.. mas lalo akong humagulgol. Wth did you do, April? Why it came out like this..

"Marife, tama na.." my dad said.

Nakita ko ang marahas na pag tanggal ng braso ni mom sa pagkakahawak sa kaniya ni dad. Mom cursed loudly.

"Emilio! Your daughter has gone too far! Naghihirap tayo para mabigyan siya ng magandang buhay but what did she do? She took that opportunity to mess with things!" Mom said while crying. Umiling ako. I can't be like this!

"Okay lang sana kung nandoon siya sa birthday ni Paige at hindi nalang gumawa ng kahit ano! April, saan ako nagkulang sa pagiging ina? Why are you doing this?" Iling niya.

All the words that was said to me were true. Kahit ayaw ko, kahit stubborn ako, kahit makulit ako. Hindi ko rin alam eh. Hindi ko alam kung sino ba ang nagkulang. Maybe me, because I have never been a good daughter. Tears are like racing down my face.

"Mom! No, please... Hindi ko kakayanin don! Wala akong kilala roon. I'm not for that place!" Pagpipilit ko.

Umiling na rin si Dad. I can't believe what's happening! Bakit ganito naman kahirap ang parusa ko?

"Hindi. Doon ka muna mag aaral hanggat matutunan mo ang lahat! You need to be independent." Final words from my mom before she left. Naiwan kaming dalawa ni Dad.

Nilapitan ko si Dad at niyakap. I know papa can't resist me. Niyakap ako ng mahigpit ni Dad. Maybe, he will help me beg my mom to stay here!

Tumingala ako sa tatay ko at ngumiti. But his eyes are full of sadness and disappointments. I suddenly got confused. Is he with mom? Bakit? I thought..

"My daughter.. your mom is right. You need to learn your lessons. But remember, I will be there for you, okay?" Ngumiti siya.

No. No.. paano ako mabubuhay mag isa roon? Do I have relatives there? How about neighbors? Do I deserve this?

Yaya gave me a water. Namumugto ang mata ko habang tinitignan ang tubig. Nagdadalawang isip kung iinumin ba ito. Kada minuto ay naaalala ko ang mga pinaggagawa ko! I'm such a disappointment to my family.. I can't believe. Ininom ko ng mabilisan ang tubig at nilabas ang phone. Puno ng mensahe iyon ni Paige. Nakakahiya. Shit, I'm very sorry..

Paige:

What happened? Bakit ka nawala kagabi sa party ko, I thought sleepover? :(

Paige:

Hala, bess. I'm sorry I didn't know that my friend had an IG story where you and some guy were kissing. I'm sure your mom saw that!

Pumikit ako sa nakita. It's fine. Nangyari na lahat eh. It's my fault not yours..

To Paige:

Happy Birthday again, Paige! It's fine. I went home because we had some dinner, you know family gathering. See you soon! Love you!