I Got Myself Into This

chapter:1 you really are stupid

" you know I don't have money ky " I heard my Mom say as I walked into the house . 

She was rampaging through her handbag , and besides her stood my younger brother ky .

I always hated it when my mom complained , and she did that all  the time . She complained when  it rained and when shined . She complained about money ,food , gas ,the billlis ,  our sending and even our friend

I washed my mom pull out a couple of paper notes and handed it over to ky.

" Here that's all I have " . 

" Mom this isn't enough " 

" Ky you know very well we don't have money , we are barely surviving " she say finding her way to the kitchen .

My mom wasn't wrong but I dislike the way she made it seem like , we were dirt poor . Yes we did live from hand to mouth . But we had enough money to pay the bills , send my brother to school and my mom even had a car , which she never uses, cause she claims she didn't have money for gas . I understood we had debts to pay and because of that mom made us watch our sending , we couldn't wear expensive dresses or own any Luxury . But that didn't stop ky for asking my mom for money . He would say he needed it to get things for a school project, and end up buying Michael Jordan's. 

All he had to do was make sure mom didn't set eyes on them but when she did he would say a friend bought it for him . That always worked.

I search my pure and remove some paper notes and walk into the kitchen .

"Here am sure this is going to be enough" I say handing the money to him 

He counts the money then says " wow thank you sis or should I be thanking the guy with the car ."  He says Laughing his way out of the kitchen . 

" What man " my mom ask .

" It's no one mom , just cin's boyfriend . He had dropped me of yesterday "I tell my mom walking to the sink to get some water.

We where both quite for some minutes. Then I chose to break the news to the her . 

" Mom I quite my job ." I say fuddling with my fingers .

She was so calm , as if she didn't hear me . There was silence in the room and then I heard my brother's voice " mom am leaving " and those words woke up the dragon .

" You quit your job and your out sharing money like some kind of Santa Claus?" She says referring to the money I handed to my brother . 

" What a fool you are " she says and this is my queue to shot down . 

I see her lips moving but I deliberately refuse to hear her , I'd improvise this method serval years ago to stop me from getting hurt . Cause it sure does hurt as hell when you're own mother was the one calling you names .

What was her problem any way .Had I not given up enough for her .I gave up completing my Master's degree program , cause she needed help here at home. I practically through away my social life for her. And the job she's so worried about , she didn't even want me to take it in the first place .

" Answer me when I ask you a question Eva,," 

I really wish I could answer her but I wasn't listening , and asking her to repeat herself means I would have to shut down again and that will make her more furious. So instead of answering her question . I take the opportunity to explain myself even though I know she doesn't really care for my explanation. 

As I start my explanation "  mom.." she cuts me off 

" I said did you find a new job ?" She asked.

" No mom , but am going for an interview at the BLAQ'S first thing tomorrow morning ." I say smiling knowing she would be happy about that.

My old job, I worked as a sales girl . I would come to work at 8am and leave by 10 pm sometimes 11. Normally the store was closed by 9:30 pm .But I had to close all accounts for the day , take stock and balance all accounts . I first started at Sam's grocery, as a sales girl and then after the accountant quit saying the pay was too small and since I had a degree in accounting , I told Mr Sam to hire me . He told me the salary was the same and I would have to stay back after closing hour to take stock of that day . He wanted everything done daily. 

The pay was reasonable when you combine the pay for the both jobs I was working . But the work was too demanding and stressful .I barely had anytime for my self . So when I hear a customer talking about an openings at BLAQ'S financial and accounting departments . I quickly googled it and found out the day for the interview was tommorow .

BLAQ'S is a construction company companies . One of the biggest construction companies I know . Okay the only contraction company I  know . It has branches scattered all over the country . It pays it's workers pretty well from what I hear . Working at BLAQ'S is the ideal job . 

I was bought back to reality by my mom's voice, " you haven't gotten the job yet , but you already quit your job . You really are stupid " she says and then walks out of the kitchen . 

Okay my mom was right that  , I should have waited to get the job before quitting my job and by the way the BLAQ'S has high standards very high standards , could I meet up with those standards. But did she have to call me stupid . Am trying my best to get out of the mess she put us in . Am going to get a job at BLAQ'S no matter what . Just to make my mom swallow her words . 

I started preparing dinner and then headed  off to bed , I need to make a good impression by arriving early for the interview . I fall on my bed and it doesn't take too long before sleep engulfed me  .