Ruang Kita II - ShawnXJules (COMPLETED)

L I M A

"I would do anything to have you."
"I want you."
"Please let me touch you."
"Please let me taste you."
"Pleasure me like you always do, please"

Aku terjaga.
Aku toleh ke sisi, Shawn tiada. Bingkas aku bangun dan mencari dia diluar. Spot him! Dia dibalkoni rumah, sedang menghirup udara pagi dengan secawan kopi, hanya mengenakan sehelai tuala menutupi bahagian bawah tubuhnya sahaja.

"Sayang I ni dah lama bangun?"
"Eh, good morning baby!"
"Morning there."

Aku merangkul pinggang Shawn seketika, hangat.

"Demam lagi?"
"Hm? Taklah. After that hot sex last night, hilang terus demam i. It was intense. That was like first time I had a damn good sex."
"Sebelum ni tak good?"
"No, it is too. Cuma last night, I don't know. Maybe sebab we both not tired. And we were doing it actively, following my fetishness?"
"What is it? Sex in bath tub?"
"Yeah."
"Sayang ni. Mandi jom? I nak beli barang rumah sikit. But I have something to talk with you."
"Okay, seems serious. Sekarang ke mandi? Mandi sama boleh?"

Shawn memeluk aku dari belakang. 

"You got class today b?"
"No lah. I started my study week already. Nak final dah, I think dalam 2-3 minggu lagi rasanya. Then after that, I will start my internship."
"Good to hear that! Let me know if you're looking a place for internship k? I'll help you out k?"
"Sure sayang! Thank you tau."

Kami sama - sama mandi, mustahil tiada apa berlaku. Sikit pun jadi lah. Dan terus bersiap selepas tu. Shawn mengenakan t-shirt collar dan short pant sahaja untuk hari ini. Charming as always. Kan?

"Baby, you cakap you ada benda nak bagitahu tadi. Or discuss? I lupa lah. What is it, sayang?"
"Ahh about that. Macam ni, I want you to take a deep breath and relax. Jangan explode, jangan overreacts, jangan stress. Boleh?"
"Wow, sounds serious but okay. Will do. Come on, pitch away!"
"Well, cerita dia macam ni....."

Aku menarik nafas panjang. 

"I met Teng couple days ago. At campus. During class."
"You what?!!"

Terlepas clutch Shawn dari genggaman dia. Shawn tersentak. Aku menggoncang tubuh dia. 

"Baby?"
"Okay sorry, I terkejut. You jumpa Teng? How? Bukan dia dekat dalam ke?"
"Tulah. Here's the thing, I met him masa tu. I asked him, about everything that happened. Dia ingat Malis, dia tahu dia ada anak dengan Malis, dia tahu Andhi tu anak dia. Tapi dia taktahu apa yang jadi dekat dia sebelum tu. Apa yang dia buat dekat Malis, the gang raped issues. Dia tak ingat langsung, b. I was so damn surprised. And dia reacts macam dia tak tahu siapa yang sumbat dia kedalam."
"That is something ---- seems weird. Are you sure he's not pulling your leg? Dia mungkin nak try prank you ke? Or just messing around with you?"
"Pranking me? Who the fuck he thinks he is, nak main dengan benda ni semua?"
"Whoa, take a chill pill sayang. Marah sangat ni kenapa? Did your heart still attach to him?"

Aku terperanjat. Aku memandang Shawn, aku tenung mata dia lama - lama. 

"I don't mind pun if you're being curious and all, Jules. But you have to take a chill pill. Reacting like this, something makes me wonder. Are you still attached to him? Are you not able to move on after what had happened between both of you? I wonder."
"Shawn, you cannot treat me like that. I'm just worried about Malis. And after all he did, takkan dia boleh escape macam tu je." 
"I know, but you kena relax. Who knows, the reason why Teng keluar dari tempat tu, sebab Malis tarik balik pertuduhan dia? Mungkin Malis nak a better future with Teng, plus diorang ada anak. Malis mungkin taknak anak dia hidup takda bapak."
"It rings the bell in certain way, but how come you know Malis tarik pertuduhan tu?"
"So, its true?"
"True lah! Then how come you know?" 

Shawn merangkul aku rapat. Dia menggosok belakang kepala aku berulang - kali. 

"Sayang. No one tells me. I just happened to know. Look, Malis is a very gentle girl. You rasa dia nak biarkan Teng lama - lama mereput dalam tu ke while dia besarkan Andhi sorang - sorang? Do you think it's possible for her? Ingat masa Malis masa gave birth to Andhi, kita nak jaga the boy. But Malis insisted nak jaga, she said taknak susahkan orang dah."
"I know but....."
"Sayang, relax. Malis tahu apa yang dia buat dan mungkin tu yang the best untuk diorang You relax okay? Let's wish them for the best. Okay?"
"Okay baby. Groceries shopping please?" 
"Sure, but after that I kena pergi outlet tau."
"Okay sayang."

VILLAGE GROCER, KUALA LUMPUR. 

Aku dan Shawn berjalan beriringan masuk ke perut Village Grocer. Nak cari groceries sikit, sebab kosong lesu dah shelf dekat kitchen tu. Dengan Shawn teringin nak makan sambal udang petai lagi. 

"Baby, I pergi ambil udang. You cari apa - apa yang you nak okay? Wait for me here." 

Shawn mengucup dahi aku. Aku tersenyum rapi. Shawn berlalu pergi.

Shawn ralit memilih udang, kan teringin nak makan sambal udang petai. Tiba - tiba, bahu dia disentuh kemas. 

"Shawn?"

Shawn menoleh. 

"Hey, Malis. Haiiii!" 

Shawn memeluk kemas Malis. 

"How are you? Buat apa sini? Beli barang jugak?"
"Haah. Cari barang sikit. I nampak you tekun pilih udang. Sorang je ke?" 
"No, I'm with Jules. I pilih udang, dia pergi ambil bahan lain. Mana I tahu nak masak macam mana udang ni hahaha."

Shawn menoleh ke sebelah, ada baby stroller. 

"Hai Andhi. Heloooooo. Comelnya anak uncle ni." 
"Shawn...."
"Yeah?"
"Please meet Teng."
"Wh-----o?"

Shawn tercengang. 

"Hi, nice to meet you bro." 
"Hhh-hello yes, nice to meet you too. I'm Shawn." 
"Yeah, I know. Malis ada cerita, you ada banyak tolong dia. You ni boyfriend Jules kan? Sampai gila hati dia tak introduce you dekat I. Hahaha." 
"Oh she didn't ? Lah. Takpe takpe, I'll ask her nanti."
"Sure. Tell her I say hi k? It was nice meeting you, Shawn. Jom sayang." 

Teng berlalu pergi sambil memimpin Malis dan menolak stroller Andhi. 

"You saw it right?"
"Yeah. Dia macam tak kenal I doh, sayang."

Shawn berpaling melihat aku. 

"I have told you b. I don't do jokes on this kind of things. It feels weird. Seeing him like that. Macam takda apa yang jadi." 
"You rasa Malis sorokkan something ke?" 
"I don't know." 

Aku genggam tangan Shawn erat, apa yang aku tahu. Aku dan Shawn berkongsi satu rasa yang sama. 

Takut dan risau.