sunflower 🌻, johnjae [ ✔ ]

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< inanayousm >

today at:
01:15

jaemin.
we need to talk.

t-talk??
dad.......
did i do something wrong???? 😔😔

no. you've done nothing wrong.
i just feel the need to...

oh
vent??

yeah.
jeno isn't online right now,
and you're my next best option.

ahhhhh ok ok
he's w/ me rn actually
hi hyung!! - jeno
yeah

actually... nevermind|
actually...nev|
actual|
act|
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ah really? that's good.
then the both of you can help me.

alright
so what's the problem??

i think i've fallen in love with someone i shouldn't
and it's really frustrating me because i knew they
already liked someone else, but i've still fallen for
them somehow. i tried so hard and kept telling myself
to not fall in love with them but i've slipped up and
now i have a huge crush.. if that's what you want to call
it, on said person. i don't want to like them because it's
making me so sad but no matter how much i try to
refrain myself from it, the image of him keeps sticking.
it's damaging me because i just know he would never like
me back and that's what's getting to me.
the fact that the chance of him reciprocating my feelings
back, is so low, probably even impossible.
i want him so bad but at the same time i don't.
i hate it, i hate this feeling. i don't want any part of it.
what should i do?

hyung..
i'm really sorry

no. don't say sorry. i don't deserve any.
i'm the one that should be saying sorry.
because of how i feel, i've even cut ties with
one of my most beloved friends. it's upsetting.
i only just realised until now that what i'd
been doing was out of spite because i was angry at them.
but i've only finally noticed how fucking petty i'm being.
i want that friend back. but i'm sure he's disappointed
in me more than i am of myself.
it's been a whole ass two weeks and yet i haven't even had the
courage to text him because i'm suck a fucking pussy, a weakling.
i want to make the both of them happy but it's breaking me
constantly being in love with someone and also being there for
your best friend. you don't know who to choose between the two.
and i can't believe i chose him over him.

hey...
doyoung
ik it's late and all
but do u want both me & jeno to come over?

no it's okay. i don't want to impose|
no it's okay. i don't w|
no it's ok|
no|
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yes. please do.
i'd really appreciate that.

then we're otw
sent at 01:38

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