I came with broken bones - Poetry Collection- 2010

A little Note to you <3

I think Iv bitten lip 

to many times 

as I write this 

I think its bleeding... 

but I dont feel it 

where do I start? 

with my emotions? 

or with mindless dribble? 

Ha! 

who am I kidding 

you never read this 

So i'll start off with my feelings 

like so; 

I have this throbbing pain in my head

its dull but somedays... 

it hurts, hurts like hell

to a poudning shrill

its loud 

annoying 

kind of like you... 

Somdays it leaves

to a small throbbing 

but I know its there; ready 

to cause me pain once more 

Iv grabbed my hair to many times, 

my scalp tingles

why must this be so hard? 

lets see... 

I'm tired, my eyes are red

my brains jelly 

my heads fried 

I can't...

I can't eat 

God forbid I can't sleep! 

You're in my thoughts

You linger and silther 

You leave guk behind 

That guk burns in my brain 

That guk turns to sadness 

That sadness infects my brain 

and grows like a fucking tumor 

Then over time I realize some things 

and that sadness turns into something else... or maybe its more?

Now you see? 

I have this something.. or something more;

I feel it sitting there in my mind 

In the darkness 

In the very pit of my fucking mind 

waiting 

waiting for me to go off 

It's growing 

lt's learing 

Learing from you

And one day it'll go off 

and on that day 

please promise me 

you'll run and hide 

Did I mention? 

I care to much about you 

I think I might  //uoy evol

I'm scared, I'll be honest 

Please...

Run well you still can