flower love # minsung

四十五

minho
i just don't get it.

jisungie
hello to you too.

jisungie
you're sitting right in front of me.

minho
i don't think i can talk to you without crying...

minho
cuz,, well, i kinda messed up.

jisungie
okay, so...

jisungie
what do you not get?

minho
out of all the people on this world, why did you suddenly start liking me?

minho
i am the most unlikable person.

minho
that's what i just don't get.

minho
isn't felix always the guy that everyone likes?

minho
i mean, you did too.

minho
and i can't even blame you.

minho
no one would like someone as weird as me.

minho
people constantly tell me how rude i am and that i'm a cat obsessed freak.

minho
when i first texted chan hyung, he told me that he understood why i had no friends.

minho
without seeing me.

minho
ofc, he was joking but this made me realize that i couldn't even blame my looks.

minho
it's my stupid personality that makes me weird.

minho
i don't even have any friends my age. they avoid me in class, thinking i would be mean and say stuff that makes me seem like an alien.

jisungie
hyung, please stop crying.

jisungie
i like you.

jisungie
you're not being weird or a freak. you're being yourself.

jisungie
all you want is what's best for everyone else, you barely ever think about yourself.

jisungie
you're not being mean, that's just your way of showing others that they can be comfortable around you.

jisungie
and you don't mean those things anyway. your heart is way too big for you to actually try and hurt others.

jisungie
you gave sunho hyung another chance and talked to jeongin even though your past has been quite difficult.

jisungie
you didn't want to talk to me because you thought felix liked me too.

jisungie
again, you didn't want to hurt your brother, you could never.

jisungie
instead, you think it's better if you're the one getting hurt.

jisungie
i want you to see that you are a breathtaking person and PLEASE STOP CRYING OR ELSE I'LL CRY WITH YOU AND GIVE YOU A HUG.

minho
...i'd like a hug right now.

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belated happy birthday to this precious angel.

i'm really sorry for leaving y'all waiting!