The art of Poesy

darkness

Adjectives will never give a candid counsel on my sentiments.
Contrary to my words and poetry,
I know that it will never indicate the extent of my emotions.
No matter how I sank deeper in the pages of dictionary
I still can't find the right word that will help me to gather my thoughts,
I'll just sip the definition until i made a gulp
But it will never define my emotional state.

What word should
I use instead of darkness?
Darkness that has a sparkling light,
while the scintillated stars could form a phrases.
Like the gleam of dawn,
Where I can understand my different notions,
By just combining the phrases until it rhyme.

But, what words?

Uhtceare; thirty three