You & Me (slow updates)

Chapter 1

I wasn't going to show him just how much he destroyed me. I'll do that alone, in my home, where no one can see me ugly cry. I was honestly surprised I held out that long before breaking down because I was beyond hurt. I was in love with a guy who already was in love with someone else. He even told me he loved me and wanted a future with me. I guess I was being naive and should have known some guys tell girls what they want to hear to get what they want.

That day was the heartbreak from hell, but a week later, I found out I was pregnant. I wasn't feeling well for a few weeks, so I went to the Dr's, where I was told I was eight weeks pregnant. She became the best thing out of our relationship back then, if you can even call it one. To me, we were in one. We were together for five months. We went on dates, bought each other gifts, and said the words I love you.

Three years later, here we are, living in a four-bedroom house, with a large backyard and a fenced-in pool. Just me and Everleigh. When Ace found out I was pregnant, his words were, "Do what you want with it but don't contact me. You're on your own. I never wanted a family with you. You were just to pass my time while Megan was away. You meant nothing to me. Besides, it's probably not even mine anyways. You're just wanting money."

Those were the words that broke me even further, but I built myself up off of them. I had no choice but to be strong for both of us. If we ever ran into each other again, I'll show him we succeeded without him. We never needed him.

When Everleigh's old enough to understand what's going on, I won't lie to her. I'm going to tell her the truth, about her father, I owe her that much.I wouldn't be able to live with myself, making up a story. What if one day she wants to find him and I lied to her? Then I would have no choice but to tell her the truth, and it would hurt her further. She may hate me then, and I wouldn't want that. I was all she had besides my family right now.

I can honestly say I don't wish things were better because I don't think they would have been. We wouldn't have the happily ever after fairytale life that I pictured. No, we would have a cheating father or husband/boyfriend. If Ace was able to do that to his fiancé, I'm sure it wouldn't have been different if we were together. I hope for Megan, he stopped his cheating ways.

Hearing little feet, pitter-patter in the hallway, I'm snapped out of reminiscing on the past.

"Mommy?" I heard her little voice call out to me. Every time I hear her say mommy it automatically puts a smile on my face. Next was my door slightly opening, and her head popping in through the crack. Everleigh was a mixture of Ace and I. The only thing she inherited from him was his grey eyes and dark hair. Everything else she got from me.

"Mommy awake? I'm hungry." Although she couldn't say the word hungry correctly, I knew what she meant.

"Good morning, baby." I smiled at her and decided I should get out of bed. This was an every morning ritual. I'd get out of bed, and she would follow me to the bathroom, where we brushed our teeth along with brushing our hair together. I was glad she came to me first, rather than wandering the house alone. She would only be able to get into the upstairs rooms because I had a gate that locked right before the steps. When she first learned to walk, I had the gates installed at both ends of the stairs, so she couldn't play on them.

Everleigh was one fearless girl. She would try anything out, even if it meant she got hurt in the process.

Heading downstairs, we made our way to the kitchen to make some breakfast.

"What would you like to eat this morning, baby girl?"

It took her a few minutes to think of what she wanted to eat. Her being undecided happens just about every morning.

"I want pancakes with fruit mommy." With a grin on her face, she grabbed her little stool to help me gather the ingredients.

After washing the fruit and cooking the pancakes, I sat our plates on the table, and we began eating our breakfast.

"Next week you start your first day of preschool, are you excited?" She shook her head no as she was stuffing her face with her pancakes. I was glad I held off showering her because now she was a sticky mess.

"Why aren't you excited? You'll make friends there."

"You'll be all alone." I wanted to cry, right there, she just melted my heart.

"I'll be fine, I promise. I have Uncle Xavier and Uncle Luca to keep me company if I'm lonely."

"Promise, mommy?"

"I promise baby girl. Now finish up so you can shower. We need to go school shopping." That got her to finish eating. For being three years old, she loved to shop.

I cleaned our mess up, and then we headed upstairs to get cleaned up. Thankfully, I had taken my shower last night before bed after Everleigh had fallen asleep.

After Everleighs shower, I dressed her in a romper, then moved us into my room to put the same romper on. The only difference was the colors, while hers was white with black pinstripes, mine was black with white pinstripes. Half an hour later, we were both ready to leave for our shopping trip.-----------------------------

hey loves!

Heres what the next story is looking like! I hope you like this one as much as Coffee Shop Letters. I'm planning on making this one longer but here's a sneak peek!

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ashlee