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Little Changes

Donny

You cannot find friendship that last forever everywhere. Shar is a treasure I luckily found.

Simula't sapul kaing dalawa na palaging magkasama. Walang tinatago sa isa't isa. When you get used to somebody's presence madalas makakalimutan mo kung ano yung tunay nilang halaga.

Sharlene San Pedro is that little kid who approach me while offering a lollipop noong isang beses na sumemplang ako sa kanal dahil nag aaral ako magbike.

Pasikat ako e kaya pinatanggal ko kaagad yung training wheels. Sa unang beses kong pagtatry straight ako sa kanal.

Sharlene never offered her hand to help me. Masaya lang siyang nag abot ng lollipop na para bang mapapagaang noon ang loob ko. Tinitigan ko lang yung offer niya saka nag nganga ngawa. If there's one thing that never change about Sharlene, that's her desire to help but she's always out of timing.

Pero makulit siya saka pursigido. Hindi niya ko tinigilan noong araw na yon. Bakit daw ako sumemplang. Kaya napilitan akong sabihin yung totoo.

"Problema ba yon? Edi tuturuan kita" pagpiprisinta niya. Kaya kada lunes nagbabike kami. Sa hapon naman iniaangkas niya ko. Hindi ko nakalimutan yon kaya noong lumaki ako, sinigurado kong maibabalik ko yung favour.

Ah mali pala. Shar is the type of person who will help you in any way she can hindi lang talaga siya malakas maka discern.

On weekends we play basketball. Sobrang simple lang namin. Kaming dalawa. Madalas kong sabihin non tatanda kaming palaging magkasama.

Ganoon kami until we turned to teens.
We all know it. May physical changes pero hanggat kayang itanggi, itatanggi.

Kala ko ok lang. Wala namang magbabago. Sharlene is Sharlene parang kapatid ko.

Until Kisses came to the picture. Shar started acting weird. Para kaming bola ng pool. Noong natamaan nagkagulo-gulo.

Just a little bit of her distance made me weirdly aware of unknown concerns inside me.

I am not that protective when it comes to Shar kase kaya niya naman sarili niya pero siyempre alalay pa rin. However nitong mga nakalipas na araw para kong sinisilaban sa upuan kapag nakakita ko ng mga lalaking nagpapakita ng interes sa kanya.

I said I will ignore it but I can't.

I never saw Shar on a different limelight until now. Basta isang beses na sabihin niyang gusto niya ko,medyo nagulo sistema ko. We even have to make promises that nothing will change but I know it only happened because of me. Ako yung magulo.

I firmly said I can't treat her the way she wants me to and yet ako mismo nakakalimot sa sarili kong pangako.

When I saw Arturo Daza was going all friendly hindi ako mapakali. He's a senior and to top that pa graduate na. Yung mga ganoong lalaki makakasakit lang kay Leklek.

Pinaka cringe line ko e noong iquote ko yung sinabi ni mum na Shar was born for me just because she stopped crying when my mum brought me to her when she was born. What was that?

I also felt bitter when she received a bouquet of food from somebody unknown to me. Ewan ko ba.

The last is when I saw Shar kissing Nash on stage. Halata namang hindi totoo but I just realise I am very bothered. I am revolting internally.

I had the chance to kiss Shar first when were kids. Four years old to be exact. We even have pictures of it. Mum thought we will end up together dahil sobrang close namin.

I almost forgot it until I briefly saw that play. Kisses was next to me and she's applauding Shar for being a great actress lalo na't Psychology ang major niya hindi naman acting.