crashed

little things

Flaws.

I have said this in my previous posting.
I have a very low self-esteem and i am not proud of my physical appearance.
I never feel satisfied about how i look, how i laugh, how i smile. Never.
I always feel like i am lacking in every aspect of my physical.
Every single thing like how do my fingers look like.
Why can't i have a long, slender and fair like fingers?

My skin.
Huh. Everything about me is dry.
My skin is dry.
My lips are dry.
My hands are dry.
My hair is dry.
My heart? 
Laugh. I think my heart is not-that dry.
Thank God.

Every little flaws in me make me feel insecure about my self.

That's why one of my favorite love song is Little Things by One Direction.
How Harry Styles, Zayn Malik,  Liam Payne,  Niall Horan and Louis Tomlinson sing about they love every bits of imperfections of their love ones.

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this mind it was meant to be
Ans i'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me.

I love how he said he accept you for who you are.

I know you never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your smiles
But i'll love them endlessly

He said that he love everything you hate about yourself.

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
Maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secret that i keep
Though it makes no sense to me

How he love about your weird habits.

I know you never love the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jean
but you're perfect to me

How he love how you look

I love how they said that they will love you despite your physical appearances and i think this apply in all type of relationship. Friendship, co-workers, family, romantic. You name it.

I have watch a video on Youtube about insecurity and one sentence hit me hard which is " we are uglier than anyone else "
It kinda make sense. A lot of people around me is beautiful. A few of my friends are prettier than me.
Just to name a few public figure who have stunning appearances like Barbara Palvin, Nana of After School, Irene of Red Velvet and Lily Collins.
Kinda unfair to compare me with those celebrities. We are in different league.

And, who knows that maybe, somebody around me think that i'm prettier than her? Maybe. Let me get my hope high.
That is why i said that statement is make sense.

But, i am still grateful that God give me chances to live, to breath, give me legs to walk, eyes to see, nose to breath, ears to listen, mouth to speak, tongue to taste, hands to work. Thank God.

Here, Harry Styles for you.