Kahit na sabihin kong hiwalay na kami ng isang linggo, alam ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko pa rin naman siya. Hindi ko lang alam kung kakayanin ko na harapin siya ngayon, since we are in Japan. Most specifically sa area kung saan manonood kami ng fireworks. We even wore yukata. I just stuck with Yuta-nii, since he doesn't know the reason bakit kami naghiwalay ni Lucas. I never told him dahil ayaw ko na mapahamak pa si Lucas kay Nii-chan. Isa pa, Lucas decided not to come kaya naman tahimik na ang buhay ko. Medyo.
"The fireworks are really pretty," bulong ng isang lalaki sa tabi ko, and as much as I wished na si Lucas yun, it was a stranger that was talking to his girlfriend.
Humiwalay ako kina Yuta-nii, dahil sinabi ko na gusto kong mapag isa habang nanonood, and Yuta-nii nodded. He knew na mas gusto kong nanonood ng fireworks na mag-isa, kahit na dati palang.
"Fuck. Why did I even believe his lies?" Sabi ko, nang mamalayan ko na umiiyak na pala ako nang mag-umpisa na ang fireworks show.
I bit my lower lip at saka pinunasan ng tuluyan ang mga mata kong di na tumigil sa kaiiyak.
Nagulat naman ako nang may kamay na humawak sa akin, and then he started wiping my tears. Magpoprotesta sana ako, kaya lang ay mas nangibabaw ang gulat ko.
"Y-Yukhei. Bakit ka nandito? Get away from me, you liar!" Sabi ko, at saka pinaghahampas siya, kaya lang ay hindi ko maialis sa isipan ko ang hitsura niya ngayon.
He may have looked so handsome and perfect in his clothes, but the way his eyes told me that he's been crying and that he's hurt too confused me. Anong karapatan niya na masaktan kung niloko lang pala niya ako?
"Vernice, I'm sorry, okay? Sure, it was a dare kaya ako nagkalakas ng loob na makipagrelasyon sayo, pero bago pa man yun ay alam na nila Jaehyun na mahal na mahal na kita. They just said na dare yun dahil pagdating sa mga dares ay malakas ang loob ko. But if I failed, if I wasn't able to tell you that it was a dare ay sila ang magsasabi sayo. Fuck, I know it was lame and heartless, but I've loved you even before this whole dare thing happened. Ask Yuta hyung, he knows," sabi ni Lucas, and I refuses to look at him.
All I could hear was the sound of fireworks as they faded away, along with my sobs.
Ang gulo ninyo! Hindi ko na alam ang paniniwalaan ko!
"Lucas, ayoko nang makarinig ng kasinungalingan pa na galing sayo. Please lang, masyado nang masakit, eh," sabi ko, but he gripped my wrist and then pulled me away from the crowd.
Nakarating kami sa may parang hill, malayo sa mga nanonood pa ng fireworks. Hindi ko naman maidedeny na tumitibok nanaman ng mabilis ang puso ko dahil alam kong I can't just unlove him in such a short period of time.
He hugged me tight, at saka naramdaman ko na umiiyak na rin siya.
Fuck...?
"Vernice, please... come back to me, please? I'd give up everything, bumalik ka lang sakin. Alam mong mahal na mahal na mahal kita. It was all a dare, but my feelings were real. They've always been real, Vernice. Nung mga bata rin tayo ay nangako ako sa sarili ko na hahanapin kita sakaling kaya ko na, sakaling nasa mas mabuting kalagayan na tayo. I can't just lose you like this," he whispered, and I pulled away from the hug.
"Lucas... I want to believe you, I really do. But how can I be so sure you're telling the truth?" Tanong ko sa kanya, my heart breaking with my words. Ako mismo ang nasasaktan sa sinasabi ko.
He then placed his lips against mine, moving them. I gripped on his shoulders as his hands placed on my sides. With tears slowly pouring down my eyes, I started kissing him back.
I could feel his heart beating as loud as mine, so I pulled away.
"Can you wait? Can you wait until we graduate? After we graduate at mahal mo pa rin ako, mahal pa rin kita, that's when we'll call each other a thing. Keep my ring, ibalik mo lang yan sa akin kapag narealize mo na hindi na ako yung mahal mo. Na hindi na ako yung gusto mong makasama sa future-"
"Don't say that. Kahit hindi mo sabihin sa akin ay kaya kong maghintay ng kahit ilang taon pa yan if it meant winning you back." Sabi niya, and I smiled softly at him.
This is the Lucas I know. My Lucas.
As the final batch of fireworks died down, he kissed me again, this time much deeper and rougher than earlier.
I could feel that he was trying to tell me what he couldn't say through words, so I let him be.
He then kissed on my jaw, holding me closer. I wrapped my arms around his neck, as he kept me as close as possible.
"I won't ever let you go. And that's not a lie,"
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