The Boy In The Flannel: Senior Year

Chapter Two

   January 19, 2020
   The first month of the new decade almost over, and nothing really out of the ordinary happened, except for going to a show for Christmas, well that and I have to start donating plasma to make some money.

   Over that past few days I've had way too much time to think, future and past alike. Mostly about how much I could have done differently and how I messed so much up, and a bit about some people that I like and have liked me in the past, I kinda want to ask pupper if pastry puff still liked me but I doubt that, I didn't want to date her before because i was worried it would have been bad.

   January 20, not much happened since my life isn't like the one I'd like it to be, there's no friends to hang out with, no girlfriend to call or text, barely any motivation to do anything, mostly just eat, sleep, and sleep some more, I guess the occasional games to play but those aren't really fun anymore, all I want now is someone to help me to feel, to be better, to want to be better, to care or at least make it seem that way.

   Pupper and I don't really talk much anymore and when we do it usually comes to this dumbass that she's interested in, I say dumbass only because he's so stupid that he doesn't realize how lucky he is to have her love, how special that is.

   I don't even know why I try anymore, everyone I currently talk to barely talks with me at all, so once this year is over it all is, no more pupper, pastry puff, JM, or anyone from highschool, it'll be me alone again while they're off doing their own thing and being happy, or at least pursuing their happiness and careers while I'll probably be here since I never expected to really have a future, I still kinda don't want one, I don't see the point in it.

  Five days later, and it isn't bad other than JM not talking with me and my best friend getting really hurt by this asshole of a guy. But I'll be here for her like usual, and that's okay, I wouldn't really want to be anywhere else but by her side helping her as much as I can.

   Anyway, being woken up by the loud ass tv it the living room is just the absolute fucking best, just love when that happens especially at one in the morning. I suppose it isn't the worse thing, I get extra time to do things like homework or playing games, mostly playing games.

   Like usual, nothing much happens over the weekend since I have to stay home and help clean and shovel along with a few other things that are just as tedious.

   Now Monday the 27th, the last week of January and I thought we weren't swimming in gym anymore so I brought my normal gym clothes like an idiot, but it's fine I guess, I'll just have to bring them tomorrow.

   Kinda weird first hour since my cousin dropped the class, I mean I could have too, in theory I could drop every class that isn't mandatory since I have all possible credits you can get at this point, all I'd need is English, government, and gym.