If Loving You Was Wrong

Wishing

Introduced

In moments like this I wish I was like everybody else. To me everybody else seem to have a perfect life except me. Pretty faces, banging bodies, popular, money, family, and power.I had neither I was just a regular girl trying to get on with my life. My mother constantly tells me how I'm not shit and my father blames me for not being a blessing. Yeah you guess right my life is pretty fucked up. I tried many times talking to them trying to get help but nothing works nothing at fucking all. Freaking pathetic you ask me. But enough with my boring ass life story lemme tell you why I'm really here in this fucked up place.

I'm 23 years old living with my parents because I can't afford to live by myself. Not financially or mentally. When I was 16 my brother got caught moslteing me. He was the biggest part to our family he provided for us and he was just basically the fucking sunshine to our whole family. But yeah your wondering why he raped me. One night he came into my room telling me he was going to fuck some girl he liked, but he wasnt experience so he needed a toy to fuck on so he told me I was go be his experiment. He forced him self on me like I'm sum slut. My brother and I never really got alone because I was a second everything with him around. But I got use to it until now.. "Luke what the hell are you doing get off of me NOWWW!!!" He wasn't listening to me he kept kissing my trying to take my clothes off. " Shut up you little shit I'm trying to something and your fucking ruining it you selfish bitchhhh! " I have never in my life heard my brother talk like that let on act like this. I was behind hurt and scared that he was trying to force him self on me. Like your my brother this isn't what siblings do.

He started kissing on my neck while pinning my hands above my head. I wouldn't kiss him I was disgusted and behind terrified, I tried to scream but forgetting our parents aren't home. As soon as they get back im telling them what the hell he's doing to me, what am I'm kidding they wouldn't even believe me they don't even like me. So what was the point. Eww man I tell you.

He started taking off my shirt sucking on skin, then he unrelease my bra and started sucking on my tities in that moment I went numb. He starting undressing me and once I was completely naked his thrust inside me. I was a Virgin. "LUKEEEEEEE THAT HURTS WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS PLEASEEE STOP!!" He didn't listen he kept going and going and I was crying so hard I didn't know he was cumming on my stomach. At least he pulled out. He left my room after that. I silently cried my fucking brains out. I couldn't even form a sentence " He. .. He took- my... innocents.

So after that first experience he started doing it every night continuously. I couldn't tell anyone I didn't have any friends, my parents practically hates me. But on June 25 fours days before I turn 20. I decided I had enough of the building so I decided to set him up. I recorded him one day and showed it to the police and they came and arrested him and he's facing 15 years in prison because he wanted to show of for sum girl.

But that leads you to where I am now and why my family hates me. I took there sunshine away.