Kihyun || Forever with you

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•KIHYUN'S POV•

Right after closing the door I fell down to the floor. I nervously ran my fingers through my hair.

"Why do I keep seeing her?" I asked myself slowly losing my mind.

"I guess I will never be able to accept the fact that she is gone forever now." I realized.

"I love her with my entire heart, I really do but I wish I could let her go and forget that horrible day." I thought while tears began to roll down my cheeks.

It was that day when my whole life changed. It became senseless and excruciating.

How I wished that day never would happen.

How I wished I would not come too late at that day.

I wanted to be free from all this pain and be able to let her go but I couldn't.

I felt extremely tired so I slowly stood up from the floor and went to the bedroom. Laying down on my bed I closed my eyes while breathing out.

"Why did I lie to Hyerin before?" I thought to myself.

The truth was that her words did remind me of someone who died but it was not a friend. In fact it was my girlfriend.

I didn't know how it was possible but she talked just like her and I even for a brief moment thought that I saw her in front of me.

I actually did not plan to get angry at Hyerin. I guess the only one I was angry at was myself.

I couldn't accept the fact that another girl made me think it was her. I was mad at myself for even thinking about that.

No one could ever replace her. The space in my heart was only free for her and no one else.

I put my hand onto my chest and touched the necklace hanging around my neck.

"I am so sorry." I thought before falling asleep.

~Dream~

It was a day like each other day.

I came home earlier today and was beyond excited to see Nana. I missed her so much. Even seconds without her felt like ages.

"I am home." I said out loud.

Walking into the kitchen a small piece of paper, laying on the table caught my attention.

I opened it and saw a text written on it and began to read it.

- Please don't feel guilty Kihyun. It is not your fault, it is my own decision. I am sorry I could not be perfect. I am so sorry for everything. I wish I could stay with you but this pain has become unbearable to the point that I can't live with it anymore. I just need to end all of this. Please know that I will always love you.
With love, Nana. -

I didn't seem to understand what was happening. I dropped the piece of paper on the floor.

My heart began to raise like crazy and I started nervously running my fingers through my hair.

"Nana, where could you have gone?" I tried to sort my mind to be able to think in this kind of situation.

"Right. Our place." I thought and immediately ran out of my appartement.

Finally reaching the place I was running like crazy to be able to reach the rooftop as soon as possible.