i will be the one to love you

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1st pov

my name is liang zuzhou from a noble family which is liang , my family hold a strong cultivation sect but by knowing my name only you know how my parent fell toward me , they called me a curse and unfortunate child that bring shame to our family since as well known the older son of the family must be the next heir and have a high level in cultivation and a man that kill the women with his building body like my father feng liang but I was the opposite from my father, even so, my parent have black hair both of them but my hair is silver to white which is very uncommon and my eyes color is a combination  between my father brown eyes and my mother blue eyes with a big eye lashes and straight small noise with reddish lips and for my body is slender that you notice me as a woman only if I did not have what is between my leg that makes me a male....aaa..half male you can say . and with that appearness I have a very dark red cinnabar that can be seen as black but my appear ness was not the problem here I simply cannot cultivate so I can be called trash but my parent didnot know even i that iam a ger until I read some doctor books and I notice that iam a ger and that ger are very rare since when ger gave birth to achild it will be only pure male a man while a ger never gave birth to a ger child or a girl but it will still hold in there genes until for at least 100000 year for a ger child to be born so ger are very rare and no information about them . so when I was born the doctor notice it since ger are well known for have 2 different colour eyes and that cinnabar at his neck but he did not tell my parent since he did not go to say any wrong things. but if they know that they will be simply the luckiest parent but if they know and I will never tell.

 I cannot cultivate so knowing their first child is trash they feel ashamed so they banned me from going outside and they put a rumour that their first child died while giving birth and after I became 5 they throw me to a small old house very fare from theirs.

in my life I was treated no different from animals who are chains and not allowed to go outside I suffer from cold and many times I will die from high fever if not by the help of an old lady that is our maid she loved me and took care of me as she was my mother and she will always will , she loved me for being somehow look like her old lady which is my grandmother who was different from my mother who was kind and nice while my mother is arrogant and love power like her life and when she notice her own son her own flesh is a trash she throw him as a trash and forget about him but when I was 4 my mother gave birth to a pure male and she was happy by that and my father too so they gave all love and care that he became a spoiled annoying arrogant brat that will abuse me for time to other with my sister who is only one year younger than him.

she was an arrogant bitch that very proud of herself and her little or so-called only dream to marry a prince since she is very founded with princess and prince stories so she dreams to be the mother of all the empire not a lovely wife to her husband .....a daughter like mother. she hated me for being more beautiful than her but she cannot hurt me but she still can abuse me emotionally.

when I was 15 the old lady died because my mother killed her after she notice that she took care of me all these 10 years and of course my sister told her . at this same age I grown up to be called hmmm... angel that when sometime I sneak out of house I always see men want to eat me alive like some kind of sweet meal and for the women they looked at me as they want to kill me because of their jealous so after that, I never went outside.

my brother have earth element as my father while my sister have a water element which is average but still better than nothing my brother element is one of the main 4 element fire, ice, wind and earth if you are asking how I know that because I am got at sneaking so sometimes I follow my brother huan to school and I learned some spell and I took always the books that children will throw then every year for 6 whole years and I will and still went to the library to learn more about magic and also how I know that I am a ger , and for magic there are 3 categories first which is very rare element which is light element that carries thunder ice metal and healing elements then the second one is the main four elements fire, ice, earth and wind and the 3rd and least elements are water, plants and sand and for material skills I learned to fight with sword when I met an old general that return from war and his grandchildren does not want him to teach them so he was sad and when I saw him practising I praise him and this happen when I was 10 years old he looked at my puppy eyes then he asked me ' emmm.. do you want to teach you I nodded  and said 'yes yes please' I will always remember what he told me but for my so called family I doesnot remember a single word because idonot care or bother my self to remember.

after 2 years my brother is 14 so he went to take the cultivation competition so I sneak outside to taste some wine since I am 18 already so I went to some drinking place till I heard some laughing so I sneak a look to see women serving men and dancing and singing so I sneak without making anyone see me and then I find some quiet and luxury place so I went there climbing . when I was there I felt someone from behind he asked ' are you here to kill me' putting his knife at my neck while I was gulp scared ' really I must bring always bring bad luck to myself really I must find some amulet'